_Im Always Here ; S M I L I N G____. xD

2008-03-15T01:22:00.003+08:00

BLOG HERE NO LONGER AVAILABLE ! =D

2008-03-14T10:40:00.002+08:00

Gd morning my dear. =D

heard that you are now in Paris. having fun over there? Don't forget to buy souvenirs for your friends. i'm still down here waiting for you to be back. =) later i will be going out with my UNIQUE. Don't jealous okays? Smile. =D you know i do love you. so do not be jealous. =D You know. Visa card has been trying to cheer me up. later she will be going west mall with us. =D i jio her go eat subway. Hahas. Haven eat for 3 days like that le. so i must eat something then i can survive until you are back. =D By the time you are back , i promise that you will see a nice legs of mine instead of full of scratch scars. =D you know. whole singapore is experiencing 22 degree celcius during yesterday night. i was freezing. =D I opened my wardrobe and i see the jacket you want to give me de it's no longer there since the day i returned it to you. The jacket is very warm. i like it so much. But too bad bahs. I've given it back to you le. I hope oneday you will be back , cover the jacket over me when i'm cold. hahas. you always like to cover my head with the hoodle. Next time you shall do it on me again. =D i missed it so much. =D later 12.30pm must meet at the west mall. why they don't want to go bugis lehs? much more fun . then i can make my spectacles over there too. so convenience lors. =) then i can take 960 home too. hehes. =D saw your dog le on the display picture . not the fury type as i expect. hahas. naninanibubu. you haven see my new bought NIKE shoes yet. =D oh ya. i finished reading the VANITEE BEE that novel. Hahas. Not bad. i like it so much. especially in front , the author dedication was to Jay Chou , her idol for life and her family and so on. So funny right ? Hahas.Maybe tonight i will be proceeding to read the PRINCESS DAIRIES. i still got borrowed a book known as THE FROG PRINCE. I haven even start reading yet. 23 march i must return le. then now still read like slow poke.Hahas.Just like my Da gui Xiao gui like that. =) I hope later 4 plus or 5 plus mei mei will be free then i can meet her at bugis to make my spectacles. Do you think she can make it to bugis by that time ? =) Oh ya. baby . i think im even sadder yesterday. My mum said jiu kuai ba is going to die soon le. cos it was getting very skinny le. it has been 4 years with me le. can't bear to let go. like how i cannot let go of you. =( i took 2 photos of it just now. i scare i cannot see it anymore. =( I going west mall soon le. don't worry. i never wear make up. never wear skirt. i wore a black shirt and a bermudas den my NIKE shoes ! =D i look very man. Dun worry. =D i'm waiting for you to come back . 83 days more. =) come back look for me okays ? i love you so much . hope you can see my blog. that shown how much i really love you. =)

i miss you and i want you and i need you and i love you.

P.S ; Now it did not rain. SUNNY ! =D

2008-03-13T19:16:00.005+08:00

did you block me again ? why ?

baby.did you block me again ? i haven seen you online for quite awhile le. even your display picture is gone le. did you block me ? why ? because you don't want to see my face when i online ? or because you did not wish me to online ? i online because i see you online i can actually somesort of ' see you from far ' . do you prefer i don't online so you can feel better ? or do you prefer i delete your contact and all ? my friend just ask me a question. " why do he have to take so long to be single ? " " I don't think he love you le " " I think he having a stead now den don't want let you know then if by that time they still together then he won't come back for you le " i don't know if it's true but it somesort make some sense. baby. are you really going to abandon me le ? are you really going on holiday or it is an excuses that you make up that you want to be single then to be with another girl ? cos your heart is not with me le ? i feel so hurt again now. i accidently slash it across my wrist again. i'm so sorry...you know. i don't dare to touch the ten years series that you gave me. i scare i saw your handwriting , de memories , i will cry uncontrollably.please don't block me. i wish to see how have you been. at least , let me see you from far.i won't disturb you de. i mean it. i miss you and i feel so hurt now.

will you really come back for me ?
have you love for me faded or fading le ?

baby. you asked me to trust you. okays. i trust you. i believe you did not block me. i believe you did not have another stead. i believe you still love me. i believe you will come back. i believe you that you just wann a holiday. i believe you. =) come back soon. =D

P.S ; the rain is getting bigger and bigger...

2008-03-13T16:38:00.003+08:00

How have you been ? This the third day without having you by my side...

baby how are you now le ? feeling better ? i'm still the same. waiting for you to come back. i today very obedient. i stayed at home like you used to wish me to. I never go out shopping or what alone le. I scared everywhere i go reminds me of you.I also never stratch my legs le.the moment i scratch my legs it reminds me of you. then i will quickly let go of my hands. You got went out right ? Cos i never see you online today.( only for awhile ) Baby.Tomorrow i will be going out with my classmates.Hope you don't mind okays ? Actually i really hope you are still here telling me you mind and a bit jealous. i missed your ' jealous-but-don't-want-to-show-it-too-obvious ' face. =) Dear dear . you know it's been raining for a few days le. Finally now in the afternoon it stopped raining. The rain just makes me feel so moody and worse. Now i got to see the sun , feel it's warmth.I'm feeling much better. =) Will you want me back ? i'm missing you so so so damn much. I can't tolerate for just only 3 days le. let alone 3 mths times. i'm afraid by that time you would not make it back. i'm afraid by that time you would be embraced in someone else's arms.i'm afraid you don't want me back le. Today i went to the toilet at kitchen there de. i saw the table and the chairs where we used to sit together to have our dinners , eating away my mum's cooking. =D i not obedient le. i cried. i haven make my spectacles yet. i was hoping for you to go out with me and buy the spectacles together de. you said you would help me choose. But now i guess i had to go myself and choose it myself le.

baby you know. today in msn got people said me dao. cos i don't want to reply them. i do not have the mood to talk to others.especially guys. cos you don't like. so i never do it . i went to refill my water bottle just now in the kitchen. i passed by the door. i looked out. saw the 920 bus. it reminds me of you alighting at my stop , walking up to my house to bring me food and teach me math.honey.i really missed you aloads. my bedroom seem so quiet. even the whole house. makes me feel so worse now. ya. of course crying now while typing all this. cos i really miss you.oh ya. i haven tell my parents yet that we broke up le. cos i don't know how to tell them. hearing my mum's voice and looking at her face. words that came out of my mouth just disappeared. only my mei mei knew that we broke up le. she told me don't be sad but i keeps on crying in the night. i don't dare to tell my mum. i scare my tears would fall in front of her. i think she is coming back soon le. i better stop crying now. if not she will ask de. =)

it have been 2 days since i last eaten. i keeps on drinking water only. Hahas. swollen eyes and fever still bugging me. i don't know what to do le. i cannot go and rest. because it would remind me of you asking me to rest whenever i'm sick. i scare once i close my eyes ur image would appear in front of me.baby. when you went out just now , you got bring umbrella ? you cannot get drench. understand ? will have cramps again de. but even you have cramps this time round. i doubt no one will call me to inform me le.so must take good care of yourself okays? i'm not there to sms , msn or call to remind you le. i'm trying to be independent now. i too depend on you le. that's why now i still can't let go of you. sending you on plane to holiday. is the biggest problems to me. but i still did it le in the end by conquering and persuading myself. school reopening soon le. hope you have a good rest before your poly start aye ? =D i today went to few friends of mine de blogs. i so envy that they are still so loving with their stead whereas i'm now so lonely.My friends asked me to be strong like last time. But i doubt it could make it. cause , i already used to you being with me le. everythings feel out of place and wrong without having you now. i'm so afraid. i scare on that day , you will really never sms me, telling me that you are coming back. Hahas. i guess. if you really never sms. i would feel more lost than now. Now it's already very infernal le to me. Now while i'm typing. i can hear dinosaur and her boyfriend laughing away. they have been 2 years plus together le. we have been 1 yrs plus too le. i wondered why that they can last while we cannot. i know why le. because all is my fault. i made you leave me de. i'm the one who deserve it. huo gai.i shouldn't be too ren xin. i shouldn't have anyhow fa pi qi. it's me who drove you up the corner. it's me who made you forced to leave me. it's me who made you sad. it's me who made you so jaded of me. it's me who made you like this. it's me.i'm so sorry...truefully sorry...

i just looked out of the window when i heard the sound made by the rain . splattering against my window panes.it's raining again. no matter where are you now , don't get caught in the rain. because i want you to be safe. i know i cannot receive news from others again if you were to be in accident again.it's like so sad larhs. even when i'm crying now , you are not there to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be alright le.my heart feel so cold now.like it need a jacket to wear on. perhaps because you are the jacket. when you are gone , i feel so cold and lonely now.i need something to warm my heart. give me a heater please. =) actually your last msg is already my heater. =) baby. some of my friends know i'm having high fever now. hahas. they asked me to go see a doctor. but i don't feel like to. it will also bring back the memories where you brought me to polyclinic to see a doctor. =) baby. when are you coming back ? i missing you tons. =D

i've decided to watch kirarin revolution and shugo chara one episode and once every week. until the last day you would give me an answer. this will definitely can last me through this 12 weeks. =D my left eyesight seems to be dropping le. my left eyesight is very blur now even i wear a spectacles or contact lens. Don't know what is happening. hahas. i wish to paralyse my emotions and thoughts of you now. but too bad. i don't have the ability to do so. you also would not be here to tag my blog le. to look at my post le. my school is going to reopen soon le . i have to force myself to take that bus again. walk that route again. i scare i might cry halfway and makes people think that i'm lunatic. hahas.you know right yesterday. i was so sad at a point then my mum on the radio as usual then so coincidence lors. i heard the song by zhang zhen yue. ai wo bie zou. makes me feel more like crying liaos seh. i'm so thankful that i have a blog. i can now imagine that you are talking to me on msn like that. so happy. =) i've got so much and so much to tell you. be right back okays? come back to me okays? i will look out for you whenever i'm going from school or back from school. to see if you come and fetch me. hahas. i will also look out for you at the 920 bus stop. to see if you had alight and buy me food as you scare i will be hungry. =D okays darling. i'm going to watch Daa ! Daa ! Daa ! soon on crunchyroll. i will be back to talk to you at night if i have some more things to tell you today. Stay here and be there for me okays? i miss you aloads. =D

Always missing and loving you.
if i have the chance again , i will be the one embracing you in my arms and hug you so tight that i will never let you go. =)

P.S ; The rain is still falling as the same as yesterday...

2008-03-12T19:11:00.005+08:00

strolled in the rain. will you be coming back ?

will you be coming back ? will you be returning , bringing me a present ? will you come back and still love me as ever ? will you still piggyback me? will you still hug me ? will you still make me smile even when im sad ? will you still be listening to me attentively when i have troubles ? will you be coming back ?

i'm so not used to it. without having you by my side. now i had to take the bus alone. go to school alone. walking on the route where you used to bring me to school.memories just sank back silently. i missed your smile. missed your laughter . missed you asking me not to scratch.missed you hugging me. missed your face. missed how you always wear your spectacles like going to fall like that and need me to push it up for you. missed how you hold my hand. missed how you pat my head . missed the times you teach me math. missed the times when you crap with me. missed the times when we celebrate our valentines. missed the times when i keep on bullying you . missed the times when you fetch me to school. missed the times when you wait for me. missed the times whenever we quarrelled you will still be there to hold me back . missed the times when you called me. missed the times when you sms me. missed the times you msn me. missed the times whenever and wherever we spent together. missed every memories i had spent with you.

now . i had to pretend that you're on a holiday which is so far away. can't sms you. can't call you . can't msn you . trying to bury the sadness away. forced myself to laugh and be high. forced myself to be occupied so that i would not have the time to think of you . fought back the tears which were going to roll down if i blink one more time. forced to try to keep myself thinking that you will be back.forced to lie to myself that you still love me and will miss me. i was just so down that i did not eat for the whole day , did not even sleep at night. i'm afraid that if i sleep , i would be relunctant to wake up and face the truth . face the loneliness . face the memories. face the promises that you gave that will never come true. do you know i talked to myself today as i was walking back school alone. if you were still here. you would have fetch me to school or you would be smsing me to be careful on the way. i replied. i talked to the air. i waited for the whole day. the phone remained silent. whenever there comes a vibration. i hope it was from you , bringing me the good news. after waited for so long. there was still no sight of you. aye. you know i thought i saw you today. but turned out. it was someone else. hahas. are you feeling better? remembered to take medicine? remembered not to sleep in windy place ? remembered not to exercise within the week ? remembered to cover blanket ? your back still pain ? your head still ache? remembered not to drink cold drinks? remembered to sleep early ? remembered me ? I'm so envy of some couples that i saw on street today. =) They are so loving. =) how i wish you were beside me at that point of time. =D just hoping. hahas. :)

i'm glad to see you feeling fine. maybe you are really feeling fine or fake it out. i don't know. whenever i look beside me now. there is a empty space. where you used to stand beside. i keeps on drinking water. i scare my tears will flow. =) i think i will watch the kungfu panda on my own in the cinema on my birthday. fulfilling your promise to me on your behalf. =) how's your dog ? cute ? too bad. i did not have the chance to see it. ya lehs. you also haven see my new bought NIKE shoes. It's very nice lehs. you know my house here got pasar malam lehs. actually many days ago i already saw them stacking the tents le. i was hoping to bring you with me to shop round the pasar malam when it was all ready. if you were still here , you come to fetch me from school , i believe you won't let the rain drench me down. i believe you will ask me if i'm hungry and we both will go pasar malam at my school there de to buy food and eat . =) i walked home in the rain. i was hoping you to shelter me with a umbrella though i know you were not there for me le. i was drenched. =) nope. fever still on since yesterday.it haven go away yet. eyes still swollen. nope. it also haven go away yet. 6/6 is still so long and far away. by that time. would you have forgotten me ? would i be witnessing you going through another trial of relationship ? would you still be mine? would you still be celebrating my birthday with me since you missed it last year with the status of my baby ? you don't feel pressurised okays? all this were just wishes for me. you need not fulfill it. =D just let me imagine you were still here with me okays ? =D

i'm grateful. thanks for being there for me when i need you. thanks for pei me run here and there just to find a school . thanks for sacrifiying so much for me. thanks for your change to accommodate me. thanks for the presents you have gave me. thanks for teaching me math. thanks for trying so hard to please me. thanks for showering me with love and care . thanks for everythings that you did for me. thanks so much. =D

i really love you and utterly do hope that you will be back from your holidays soon. =D
if you meet with a mishap , a place crash , just don't send me a msg on that day.i will know that you are not coming back le. :) things from you will be returned to its rightful owner. :)

misses & loves from me to you. =D

P.S ; The rain is still falling...

2008-03-06T18:41:00.007+08:00

HELLO HELLO !

hahas.i haven been blogging for such a LONG LONG TIME le.Hahas.Yeap yeap. i came to update my blog. Okays.REWIND-REWIND-REWIND.i will tell you about my first day in school and all.Hahas.Yeaps.As your all know that i got into Millenia Institute ( MI ) which is a 3-years JC course.And i've met many friends over there.Hahas.Not a bad start. =D Sound tough. Woah. 3 Years JC course. So lousy. Why you prefer to go over there? Hahas.I've been poundering over this question over and over again in my mind.Because of my result? which i get 18 and after minus cca point which was 16.Still quite okays what. Have your wonder how much i have gotten for my prelim and got laughed at? 40 plus. Now ? 16 . It doesn't matter of people laughing at me.Because i knew that i've done my very best and jumped many grades.( Despite at that moment i was having BGR ) I proved to my parents and gossipers wrong.( Gossip all your want to. I don't even give a damn about it now =D ) I could still do well despite having a BGR ! =D which i really did.

ANYWAYS.LONG STORY.hahas.i will summarise the rest of the days in MI for you.hahas. ( i'm lazy ) xD I've been posted to SIMPSONS 3 and led me to know alot of friends in MI and which later become a group. Hahas.Played many games during orientation and become siao siao with my group. =D We are being called the " UNIQUE " as i believed that individually each of us are UNIQUE. =D

Oh ya.I went to watch Meet The Spartans with UNIQUE and totally laugh out loud.The show was hilarious.I loved the parts which involved "Britney spear" and the " I will survive " parts. Hahas.So funny. ( Actually i had watched it with baby , clarence and wen jie. LOLS. I've watched twice already but still not getting sick of it )Today we also took some photos in the library. So cute. I LOVE UNIQUE ! yeahs! I'm so upset about the fact that our group is going to be seperated in each and our individual classes.I WILL DEFINITELY MISS THEM DAMN LOAD or better word ,TONS ! =D

Here are the list of my dearest beloved UNIQUE 's members ;

.me
.huimin
.huijie
.lisa
.ain
.xinyi
.atiqah
.arifah
.helmi
.christopher
.rongsheng
.sherman
.david
.sean
.esmond.

hahas.YEAHS ! =D
THIS ARE ALL MY DARLINGS ! BELOVED ! SAYANG ! =D

We really have gotten quite close during this 15 days.Tomorrow will be the last day for us to be together as after the march holiday ( which is obviously next week ) , we will be posted to different classes. =( Can you believe it ? From stranger to good friends just within the 15 days in MI. It happened so fast that i could not even believe it. 2 weeks just passed like that. hahas. Btw i do have some photos but i don't think i will post it by today cos i've just changed a new cpu and all the photos and all are in the old cpu. Hahas.

And ya ya. Tomorrow i will be going back to my old sec school to see my beloved " BASTARDS " hahas.Miss them loads too. Hahas. Laopo maybe going back too. Too bad larhs.Lyn lyn tomorrow will be working. If not she could come back and join us to visit our juniors. The " bush " cannot unite tomorrow. Hahas. Lyn Bush ! Vian Bush ! and me. Bel bush ! so sad. I missed my laopo loads. PEIJIE ! =( hais. tomorrow she have CCA. hais. If not can meet lerhs. Btw , i get into basketball as my cca in MI. Hahas. Hope Ken can come for CO tomorrow with me. If not i will very sian de. =( i going to see ignatius uncle , rueben and all my friends tomorrow ! YEAHS! =D then go back for CCA. Hahas. Okays larhs okays larhs. Talked too much. Got to go lerhs. Update soon. =D promised. =D

P.S ; I MISS MY BASTARDS & BUSH ALOT NOW ! =( LOVE YOUR !

2008-03-01T17:41:00.002+08:00

I Missed The Leap Year Yesterday ...
What i've missed , not only the leap year , also.
You my love...

I've been waiting for that time when i can trust you wholeheartly after that incident.Why is it such that history is like repeating itself.You left me with doubts...

P.S ; This entry is specially for HIM to see. My blog will continue tomorrow or when i'm feeling better. =D

2008-01-08T13:06:00.000+08:00

I QUITTED RITZ CARLTON ! & Farewell to Mc King !

Hahas.How should i say? Though the pay is $6/ hr but this job is really abusing us , especially at the age of 16!Sorry , it's 17 . Hahas. It's 2008 now ! =D Whenever i work in Ritz Carlton , i'll have to work till late into night ( as late as 1am plus and by the time i reached home , 4am ) Fishcake.Always made me scolded by my mum. Then somemore you got to wear makeup to work everytime , dehydrating my facial skin.You've to bun up your hair ( increasing the amount of my hairs fall per day ) and i've found new job =) i'm now working at Fish & Co Head department located opposite Plaza Singapura , beside Parkmall ? Hahas. WHatever. It's located at dhoby ghaut =D $5/hr nia . But forget it. as long as i've got money then can le. =D holding 2 jobs at the same time. =D Dentist assistant and Fish & Co waitress =D

Anyways.It's 2008 now.I hope this year would be a great year for me.Good health ( no more operation thingy please ) ! More Money ( i don't want to be poor ) ! Make this year through with him again ( prove that we can last ) ! and also not forgetting , MORE BRAINS ( be more intelligent la ) ! Hahas. Oh ya. Have your read about the death of Mc King ? It's so sudden. Even i had a shock when i heard the news.Hope he was on his way to heaven and may he rest in peace. GoodBye Mc king. You've been a great comedian all the past few years.That should be your greatest achievement when you could witness with your own eyes that you could bring joy to the audience. We will remember you. Farewell.

I will be getting my 'O' Level Result soon.Hahas.Feeling quite apprehensive about it.Hope i can get a good result that able to promote me to poly.I roughly know that i cannot make it to JC le.So , hope for the best that i could enter poly. =D Good Luck ! =D

2007-12-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

ONLY YOU~

hahas.CHIPMUNKS'FEVER !sian.i'm going to malaysia later at 5 pm.Got to ' abandon ' my baby in singapore alone.So sad.I cannot bring him along with me.=( anyways.before i leave , Baby , here's a song for you. =) i will be back by tomorrow night but i still cannot bear to leave apart from my baby!

ONLY YOU~
( By Alvin and Chipmunks )

Only you , can make this world seems right
Only you , can make the darkness bright
Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you

Only you can make this change in me ,
for only you , you're my destiny.
when you hold my hand,
i understand the magic that you do.

you're my dream come true ,
my one and only you.

Oh~Baby~

Chipmunks' Rap Part
( Shit , too fast. Can't follow. Sorry ! )

Only you and you alone ,
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you

ONLY YOU~ =D
yeah.

( done all this with a keyboard , without a mouse as my mouse is spoilt. )
** proud **
xD

Sorry baby and please forgive me that i cannot make it back to celebrate this christmas with you. I really hope you can come with me to malaysia but i will be back tomorrow night to reunion with you. =D I LOVE YOU ! =D

Remember not to catch youself in rain tomorrow or be it today. ( If got rain la )Take good care of yourself when i'm gone. =D When i'm back , i want to see you in ONE PIECE. =D

I've got to go.
I love you baby.
Merry Christmas to you and all of you.
=D

2007-12-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

SO SIAN ! =(

After a week of resting , i'm finally going back to work tomorrow. No choice. No Work , No Pay.Hahas.Hmms.Today had a small quarrel with baby.Hais.Sorry...anyway , i went to fulfil my promise with my bestie , Peijie. We went to Sakae Sushi and had our sushi buffet.I ate damn loads and i was bloated.Hahas. What's more , I WENT ON A SHOPPING SPREE! =D the feeling was excellent , beyond descriptions. Hahas. Imagine that , you've got the money to spend and buy anythings you have desired for. SHOIK MAN ! =D Weeee! Hahas.I've bought a pair of 'Going-Out' shoes and a top. Woosh ! Spent nearly $75 in a day. OMG. Hahas.

Oh ya.I've watched a video from youtube.It's hilarious.It was Yixin who introduced to me.Hahas.

Hahas ! SILENCE ! I KILL YOU ! xD it's hilarious la. ARHH-HA! Are you scare now? God Damn It ! Ohh ohh ohh. I mean , ALLAH DAMN IT ! xD LOLS! hahas.isn't it super hilarious? hahas.

Okays bahs.I think it's time for me to go and sleep le.Gonna work tomorrow.So , see ya ! =D

2007-12-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

FIRST ENTRY IN DECEMBER ! =D

hahas.Okays i have to admit that i'm really busy.I have been WORKING! =) yea.Now currently working in Ritz Carlton Hotel and it was not as easy as i thought. It was so tough. But you can earn as much as $200 per weeks ( depend on your working hours and days ) anyways.I went to many places during this holidae.I had a meet up with my juniors and friends. We went to town area and shopped then had our lunch there too. SUSHI FOR LUNCH! =)

Then , i went to science centre with my boyfriend and friends too in this holiday. It was fun and i took many photos on it but what the fuck.My memory card was CORRUPTED. =( There goes my photos ! =(

Anyways.Nothing much to blog about recently.It's all about busy working. =( Hais.I also very flared up trying to find a blogskin which suit my taste.FCUK.Okays.Not really in mood.Sorry.

i will update more about me later when i have the time. =)
Bye!

2007-11-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

I'm ROTTING and BEWARE OF CALL FRAUDS !

Hahas.It had been such a long time since i last blogged.Yixin Qingfu,here's my another blog.Hahas.Cannot blame me okays? I've been busy slacking all day long.That's the reason why i did not blog for such a long time.Hahas. ( What a LOUSY excuse ) xD Not that i did not want to blog.It's i do not have much to blog about recently. All i do all day are either waiting for call upon to work , hang out with my boyfriend or stay at home.Nothing much exciting evolved round me recently.So i guess i've got nothing to blog about.Hahas.

Anyway , i've got my job in Riz Carton Hotel ( or is it spell as " Ritz Carton Hotel " ? I don't care. As long as the pronunciation is correct then it's fine for me. xD) near marina square shopping centre.Hahas. I'm currently waiting for that hotel admin manager , Siew Siew , to call and see if i've got the slot to let me work. Hahas. Quite an ideal job for me. $6/ Hr lehs. Reached my target.Somemore, I think working as an waitress does get tips sometimes right?

The situation will be like...

An Ang Moh come to me and i just serve them drink and all then he/ she will flash out a $50 note infront of me and say , " Here's your tip.Keep it. " WALAO EHH. SONG BO. You see. $90/ day + $50 = $ 140/ day Oh Man. Earn the money until siao.LOLS.Of course la. You think they really so good mehs? Just give you the $50. Perhaps after you took the money , they will look at you and say , " Do you have any smaller change? I only give you $10 tip but too bad i did not have small change with me currently. "

Hahas. Judging from this situation. How should you react?

LOLS. My friends and i came up with the idea.

Just reply the ang moh , " Oh mdm/ sir , it was too bad then , i did not have small change with me either. I hope you would not mind giving such a peanut amount ( Emphasis that it is just a small amount of money to them, indirectly telling them that they are rich.por them.) to a poor girl / boy like me ( also must emphasis that you are POOR. Earn their sympathy and let them know you need the money URGENTLY. This is to ensure that they will not take the $50 back! ). RIGHT ** teary eyes ** ? " LOLS. Guarantee Confirm Chop. $50 is Yours.hahas. ( If they asked for it back no matter what , turn around and tell him with a smile " Fuck you " _l_ and walk off ) LOLS. KIDDING !

Hahas. I heard from my friends that the job is not going to be as easy as what i've think.BUT.i'm attracted to the pay.Let's see. If i am going to work 15 hrs per day AND my pay going to be $6/ hr.

15 x $6 = $90/ day
if i work for 6 days / wk : 6 x $90 = $ 540 / wk
then when it's 1 mth : $540 x 4 = $ 2160 / mth !
I can have my teeth braced then. YEEPEE!!!

Oh Man ! i cannot wait to start working.I think i'm starting to rot at home soon.I am going to have mushrooms grow out from me soon.I'm ROTTING! My stupid mum and sisters have been nagging non stop. They keeps on chasing me to go and work then, to pay for my own stuff such as phone bill. They LOVE to exaggerate the fact that my phone bill was over $100 plus when it is not and all sort of stuff. JUST TO MAKE ME GO AND WORK THEN GET MY OWN PAY AND SUPPORT MYSELF !How i envy some of my friends' parents...

Ah Girl / Boy : Mum/ Dad , I'm going to work and earn some allowance for myself.

parents : " Ah Girl / Boy arhs , don't go and work la. You want some allowance right? How much? Mum/ Dad give you. Don't go and work. Want go shopping? Or you prefer to take up some dancing lessons while you're waiting for your ' O' Lvl result ? "

Kao ! That's the life i want it man. No hard earn money ! Just stretch out my hand and TADA! $ 50 ++ in my hand and i can go spent it without worrying not having enough money. WHAT THE FUCK. This is HEAVEN.Haisya.Forget it man. I doubt i can ever have that life. Beside that. I can even gain some working experiences that may be helps in my future. Who Knows ? LOLS.

SO...

SIEW SIEW ! PLEASE CALL AND TELL ME THAT YOU HAVE THE SLOT FOR ME TO START WORKING NOW!

Currently rotting at home...

( That's my current situation .)

Hmms.For the past few days i went to 2 places to ton. Firstly i went to friend's house to ton den next day i went to hubbiie's mum house to ton.Wow.His mum was great. she treated us for a meal of bbq seafood. First was the bbq stingray. TOKGONG ! Then we had fried cereal crayfish following by sambal sotongs , fried veggie , oysters omelette , fried fish covering in spicy sour kind of sauce which was a compatible match with the fried fish.EXCELLENT ! As the shop owner is my boyfriend's aunt , it was much more cheaper ! After having such a splendid meal , Me and my bf along with his friend went to pasar malam for a walk then return to his mum's hse. LOLS. We counted down for my bf's birthday( 26/11/07 ). Too bad i did not have enough money to buy him a cake.So in the end i bought him a heart shaped chocolate donut and gave it to him along with lighted candles after 12am. Hahas.I gave him a shirt for his present ! =)

Happy Birthday My Darling ! =D

Then the next few days i was resting at home.Until today he came to my house and we were playing DDR.LOLS. It was fun and guess what. He gave me a disney watch. Quite expensive. My favourite disney character Winnie The Pooh. How sweet of him. =) Next time i took a photo of it and show you + The rest of the photos that i took during the rotting days. =)

Oh ya. Speaking of this. i remembered something. Do you remember what the news have been reporting lately? About the call fraud ? Said what you've won a prize and all?

Well. i've received one of this call. A china accent speaking lady was on the other line of the phone with me.She called me and the number was unknown.She started with introducing she was from what company and promoting what PDA. Then she asked for my name and age. Of course , does she think that i'm so stupid to give her my real name? Hahas. I gave my name as " Chen x x " and posed off as 19 years old. ( Sorry. i shan't give the name as i'm afraid that they may see this post and know that it was me =X ) She gave me a kind of registered number and asked me to attend their event at Funan where and where. OH PLEASE ! I've just been Funan there during that few days and i did not see any stage or upcoming events being announced . Who was she lying to? So i just ignored it and hoped that she did not call up again.How would on the earth would i know that she called up after a few days and asked if i've turned up for the events and exclaimed that i had won a prize during their idiotic lucky draw.Then i told them i was too busy to go and retrieve the prize. Ha! They told me that they would keep the prize for me first. What The Fuck? LOLS. Anyways , i did not pick up the call next day when she called. Siao Char Bo. Fraud !

PEOPLE ! DO BEWARE OF THIS KIND OF CALL FRAUDS ! MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TRICKED AND LOST A SUM OF MONEY ! BE WISE AND LOOK CAREFULLY BEFORE GIVING OR " INVESTING " A SUM OF MONEY TO OTHERS OR OTHERS' ACCOUNTS ! DON'T BE BLINDED BY JUST A MOMENT OF GREEDINESS! BEWARE !

Next i'm featuring me and his photo as an ending ! =D

Though i looked quite matured in this photo but in actual fact , he is more matured than i do. =.= LOLS. This photo is not really nice. I will try to take a nicer photo next time ! My mum said that me and him were not serious about the love.She said we may end off soon. TOUCH WOOD ! Me and him going 1 year le okays? We may be young but we are serious now! ** angry ** Maybe we are not going to last longer or forever like those what hai ku shi lan and all, but what i know now is to love with no regret and cherish what i have now ! We will JIAYOU de! =)

hahas. SEE YA !

2007-11-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

Here's The Blog =)

Hahas.Opps! It had been 5 days since i last blogged.Okays. I admitted that i am slacking. HAHAS! Oh. C'mon. i mean...Who DOESN'T slack after their 'O' Level and go out to relax?BUT ! I've not really been slacking as i am currently busy looking out for jobs.I've got to earn MONEY! Hahas. Who doesn't LOVE MONEY? $$$

MONEY MAKES THE WORLD GOES ROUND !
I mean...MANY ROUNDS
( $.$ )

Pathetic.Have been running out of cash easily recently.Sad.I must find a job within a short period of time now. CASH NEEDED BADLY! =D

Haisya.Don't know what to write currently.Hahas.So sorry! Anyway. i will come back to update. So. No Worry ! There's no sugar. =) ( Taken from the advertisement )

2007-11-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Photos that i promised ! =D

Whoosh! I went for the wedding dinner on last saturday 10.11.07 =D
Took some of the pictures with my meimei , didi =D

AHHHH! My cousin Tong Tong shooting me! Shot a picture of her shooting me. xD Her father , my uncle still dare ask her to shoot me! ARGH!

Pretty with shawl? xD

The Bride and Groom for that day. =)
May they last forever. =)

.
..
...

Took it quite recently. My Zi Lian photos! xD

.
..
...

Hahas.Guess who is this in the photo featuring next. =)

He's very cute in this photo.
( shot it secretly... ) =)

The Man who was working very hard and seriously on E-math...
xD

I love man who look seriously YET Playful. =D
HE'S THE MAN I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR. =D
xD

He's Cheeky Look. =)

Have your guessed correctly? =)
Answer : He is my current boyfriend that i've been mentioning. =D

Next. Featuring :
Photos of my baby cousin Edison and Me ! & Ah Ma. =D

The One feeding my baby cousin - MY AH MA ! =D GRANNY!

Me & My Baby Cousin Edison ! =D

**No More Photos For The Time Being **

2007-11-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

WATCH OUT ! SHE'S BACK !

Hahas.Guess who's back? Crap. Of course is me.Hahas.Yes. I'm back to blog again! Hahas. Welcome me back .Wow.It has been about 3 mths since i last blogged.LOLS.Anyway.I've finished my 'O' now and waiting for result.

First of all.

I MUST FIND A JOB THAT THE PAY MUST BE $6 and ABOVE / HOUR !

Hahas.
Let me do the calculation for you.This implied that-

1hour - $6 ( take at least $6 first before finding a higher pay job )
10 hours - $60 / day
6 days / wk - $60 x 6 = $360
1 mth - $360 x 4 = $1440 !

Wow! It above $1000 ! Hey. Don't say i too greedy. It's just the matter that i will be the one later paying all my phone bill and essential items.i am not the type of person who would stretch out their hands and starts asking parents or family for money. I SPENT MY OWN MONEY ! I've a plan now.It is to have my teeth braced by 2008 January ! I think it would probably cost about $3000 for my teeth or more. So i got to save up enough money for it. YES!Since i will be working for about 3 mths and so? so by then,i think i could have saved enough money for it. Yeah! =D

BUT CURRENTLY...
STILL LOOKING FOR JOB !
=D

Anyway.I'm going to watch the BEE MOVIE tomorrow =D with my super duber cutest darling. xD Hahas. The BEE~ BUZZ~!! I've watched the trail ( It's extremely hilarious )and i think the movie will be quite entertaining. BEE ! Hahas.Just the chance for me to relax after the 'O' hahas.

I went to find a job yesterday but to no avail.That's fine. Job do need take time to find.ESPECIALLY for job with GOOD PAY will be more difficult to find.WORTH IT. hahas.It was very tiring.But the time , i reached home. I bath and once my head touched the pillow , i fallen asleep.That tells you how tired i was yesterday.

Oh ya ! I will show you some photos next time that i took recently. =D it is the photos of my 3 new born baby cousins. =D 1 male 2 female. =D My uncle's wife gave birth to a healthy baby boy while my aunt gave birth to 2 healthy baby twins ( girls ) right after 2 weeks when my uncle's wife gave birth. Hahas. Loads of Babies. LOLS. Perhaps it would be like the shriek 3 ? The Shriek was flooded with babies.LOLS. HIS WORST NIGHTMARE ! Hahas.

Okays.It's getting late. I must replenish my sleep from all the sleep i had lost during the 'O' period.SEE ! Dark circles and puffy eyes are starting to appear on my face ! NO WAY ! Better get some sleep now. Hahas.

See Ya !
GOOD NIGHT! =D

2007-08-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

BLOG WILL BE RESTING FOR 3 MTHS StARTING FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS !
TILL MY 'O' LEVEL IS OVER !
SADDED !

Hais.I've got the news from my ' beloved ' elder sister of mine. She's going to give me intense training from today onwards after my tuition at 4pm.What do i mean by intense training by my Jie ? Well , it's means , she will be going to coach me on my studies.She will be confiscating my handphone and will only return to me when i go to school then confiscate it again when i get home.SADDED.She did not allow me to use computer too , not allow to go out even on sunday and everyday stay home , not allowed to watch tv except studies. She also limited my bathing time and the time when i have my meal. Bathing , she only allowed me to bath for 15 mins and as for eating , 30 mins. PATHETIC. She will be drowning me with all the Ten-Years series and must be complete it on time.Or else i will be suffering from all the beating and horrendous scolding from her.I was also not allowed to sleep in early not until 12 am after i've revised all my works and not to wake up any later than 4am during the weekdays and 10am during the weekends.Come back home immediately after school.Feel so much like crying now.FUCK IT. =((

This also implied that , i could not meet him anymore , not even a day.
=( Somemore , i also cannot sms him to tell him that i will be sleeping and he cannot call me too.We cannot talk about what happened to us and how we are each day =( I could not be there for him to cheer him up and be his listening ear...I could not be there for him when he needs someone the most...I could not do everything...That's when i realised that i'm so useless , good for nothing. =( I hope that the 'O' Level will be over soon.The sooner the better !

During this period of time , i can only say to him is , " SORRY DEAR . I COULD NOT BE BY YOUR SIDE TO SHARE YOUR HAPPINESS , SADNESS , ANGER , DISAPPOINTMENT AND ALL SORTS OF EMOTIONS WITH YOU.I CANNOT BE BY YOUR SIDE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU ARE SICK OR INJURED.I COULD NOT BE THERE TO REMIND YOU TO SLEEP IN EARLY AND BE CAREFUL IN EVERYTHING YOU DO.I CANNOT BE THERE TO TELL YOU TO GO HOME EARLY WHEN YOU GO OUT.I CANNOT BE THERE TO JOKE WITH YOU.I CANNOT BE THERE TO HUG YOU. I WON'T BE THERE TO HOLD YOUR HAND.I CANNOT BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE LONELY.I CANNOT BE THERE TO TALK TO YOU AS MUCH AS WE LIKE WE USED TO. I CANNOT DO EVERYTHING JUST TO BE WITH YOU. =(( I'M REALLY VERY SORRY.VERY VERY VERY SORRY FOR IT.YOU'VE TO ENDURE ALL THIS. =(( I'M REALLY VERY SORRY MY DEAR. I LOVE AND MISS YOU...SO MUCH...SO...

Hais.Think of it , he said to me just now that he's waiting for me to watch Rush Hour 3 with him. He will wait. Wapiang ehh. I was like so touched yet so sadded bout it. I could not watch it with him in the cinema and until after ' O ' Level , the show would not be showing in the cinema anymore.But he said that he will still wait.Wait for either the DVD or VCD. He did not want to watch it with his friends. Gosh.Make me feel so much like crying.I don't feel like leaving him alone. I don't want to but i've no choice. Very sad. I'm totally down-and-out , deprived.How i wished that he's right beside me now and i'll hug him very tight i promise , not wanting to let him go. I could not even bear to let him go. =(

Dear , you must take good care of yourself when i'm not with you.Be careful of your wrists and ankles or legs. Breath in and out slowly when you have breathing difficulties.Find your friends Ronnie them to accompany you to replace the time that i could not spend with you.Please do not sleep in so late at night and get yourself too tired. Whenever you have encounter any problems in friendship , do sms me. Though i cannot be there to reply or call you asap , i will try my very best to sms you the next day when i get back my handphone.Drink more water to prevent sore throat okays? Don't eat heaty food when you're sick. Remember to cover blanket at night when you sleep.Don't worry about me. I will be fine. I've Pooh and Mickey to accompany me. I won't be alone. =) Let's jiayou and make it through this period of hard time together. =) I LOVE YOU. =D

Okays. I think i got to sleep in. Goodnight everyone. I will miss you. =(

P.S : Hope that the time will be over soon and we'll be together again.I will definitely miss and love you loads during this period of time.Blog-Resting starts now. =(

2007-08-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE AND MY EX =)

I've missed the chance to go and watch NDP this year as well as the fireworks. =( But it's alright. I saw it on the TV. Hahas. I stayed at home the whole day today. Quite bored but it's okays. =) I've got my friends to chat with me online.So , it doesn't matter ! xD

Oh ya. Happy 19th Birthday Shiyang. =D Hahas.Chatted with him just now on phone about 1 hour plus. Hahas. He's still the same.Nothing about him change at all. He keeps on talking about the memories i have with him , the time when he brought me to watch fireworks together during the fireworks festivals and how we celebrated our 2nd month on 120806 and all. But , why should we talk about things in the past.Somemore , he talked to me about me and him in the future too. My gosh. Why talked about this? But anyway , i got my him le. So , no matter how much he has said , i won't go back to him. I won't abandon my dear one.He such a dear to me. =)

Happy 42th Birthday to Singapore ! Hahas ! It's a pity that this year i did not have the chance to go and watch it.Hahas.It's alright. =D I shall update my blog next time. =) See ya ! =D

2007-08-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW IS 080807 ! ONE MORE DAY TO NATIONAL DAY ! =D

Hahas ! Congratulation me ! I will be attending school till 10 am plus and i will be on my way home ! YES ! Hahas.Wapiang ehh.Yesterday night damn crappy.I was sleeping and i woke up suddenly. In the middle of the night . OMG.Hahas.Sounded like some kindda of horror movie as if i was awaken by some spirits? LOLS. CRAPS. Perhaps i'm too stressed. I remembered that i woke up in 3 am plus yesterday and i thought it was 6 am plus , the usual time when i wakes up and get ready to go to school.Hahas.I was wondering.Why my handphone alarm did not ring at all.Hahas.I took a second glance. Yarhs what. 6.35am. Hahas. What i did was , i continue lying on my bed waiting for the alarm to ring off. I waited and got impatient. I got up and took the third glance at my handphone.BLOODY CHICKEN. It was 3.50 plus am in the morning. LOLS. So stupid and goon lors.My eyes must be pai jiao le. xD So i went back to my dreamland.Hahas.

Oh ya.Forgetting to mention.He read my blog again and got upset by it again.LOLS.It was in my expectation.I knew that he would go and read it.SO SORRY. =( WOOOO. I realised something.HE HAS A BIG HEART. LOLS.Looking back , i've done tons of things that made him got so upset about and yet , he was forgiving me times and times again.VERY FORGIVING. Good Good. A point that we should learn from him. ** Salute ** xD But. I should never take it for granted. Perhaps his patient is wearing thin for me le then i still at there taking it for granted as if it's his duty to endure my attitudes.BIG NO NO.I NEVER EVER TAKE YOU FOR GRANTED but , i need you to understand that i need times to cool down and entertain myself.Sorry.I know you always did your best in cheering me up.Thanks so much for it. =) Hahas. YOU'RE THE BEST ! ** Huggies ** =DD

Don't ever do anything that let me down or i'll castrate you when i finds out. ** Winks ** No More Happy Father's Day For You ! LOLS. JOKING LARHS. Hahas. I'm not as bad as you think.Really.Trust me.Just look at this innocent face of mine.Do you think i'm that bad? =) I'm WORSE. xD Muahahas~ ** Looking seriously ** Do you think i'm kidding ? Yes. I'm joking. xD LOVE YOU MY MR BIG HEART. =D Purple Roti. xD

Phew~ Nearly forgetting clean about it. Tomorrow will also be my grandpa's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA ! =D May you be healthy and everything going well smoothly for you ! =D I LOVE YOU ! =D I will be going to my grand's house to have my dinner there while celebrating his birthday tomorrow ! YEAHS ! STEAMBOATS ! ABALONES ! MUSHROOMS ! ALL MY FAVOURITES ! xD

Hahas. I lent my red pe t-shirts to Sihui and one of my beloved junior.LOLS.Tomorrow , all of us must be in our red shirt. CRAPS. LOLS. I will be wearing my school red CO t-shirt.LOLS. Looks like i'm selling bak gua when i wear on it. xD It's alright. I haven been wearing it since i stepped down.LOLS. Shall seize this chance to wear it. xD Another junior of mine , fear not , i shall lend you another red shirt that i wore in 2004/5. The red hangten t-shirt with a huge word " SINGAPORE " printed on it.Hahas. VERY GOOD. You got the love for Singapore so deeply. I'm proud of you. xD

SIHUI AND MY JUNIOR ! TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY PRECIOUS RED PE T-SHIRT ! xD $500 arhs if a bit torn. xD Kidding ! xD

Think i got to end here . It's getting late and it's the time for me to tuck into my cosy bed. =) Goodnight. xD

P.S : MR BIG HEART , I KNOW YOU DID NOT DO IT ON PURPOSE. PLEASE DON'T MISTAKEN ME OR FROM MY PREVIOUS POST. ** Huggies ** and HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDPA FOR TOMORROW ! =D

2007-08-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

CAUTIONS : THIS POST IS VERY DISTURBING. IF YOU FINDS IT TOO VULGAR OR IS BLINDING YOUR EYES , I SUGGEST THAT YOU MIGHT AS WELL DON'T READ IT. THANK YOU. =D

PRESS HERE TO LEAVE.

BEFORE YOU PROCEED , WARNING AGAIN. IT'S FULL OF VULGARITIES.

FUCKING KNN.I FELT AS IF THE WORLD IS CRASHING DOWN ON ME.CHAO CHEE BYE.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.TODAY IS A FUCKING DAY ACCOMPANIED BY A FUCKING MOOD AND THE FUCKING PRELIM PAPERS . I would be having my fucking 'O' Level oral on fucking Monday 130807. FREAKO. SHUCKS. FUG.Failing English is totally = to failing everything. SHUCKS. Even my literature. I thought that at least i would be attaining a B4 or at least a pass , nope. It's FAIL that all i've got on the paper. BIG FAT LETTER " F " ON MY PAPER.FUCK. Why am i fucking stupid whereas others are so much more cleverer than me? I feel so inferior and useless. Useless bum for sure.

TMD.He was comforting me first then later gave me attitude. Don't he ever know that whenever someone is fuming with anger , don't ever step on their tail ? ARGH~ Not that i want show him attitudes. It's just that i also very pekchek and du lan le. FUCK. NO ONE UNDERSTAND. Okays. Now i'm swearing and cursing like no other people's business. FINE.YES. I ADMITTED THAT I GIVE UP EASILY. WHAT I CAN SAY THAT IS I REALLY CANNOT STUDY IN THIS KIND OF CLASS.IT'S SO CHEE BYE LORS.DOWN TO HELL.I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT YOUR SHOULD DETEST. PATHETIC WEAKLING LOW CREATURE. THAT'S WHAT I AM.Failures should never ever exist in this competitive unfair society.This is totally unbearable.FUCK.I MUST HAVE BEEN CURSED SINCE WHEN I WAS STILL A BABY.

NO CHANCE IS BEING GIVEN IN THIS PRESSURISE COMPETITIVE EMOTIONLESS SOCIETY.IT'S GOOD THAT IT'S PROGRESSING BUT DO WE EVER REALISE THAT AS TIMES GO BY , PEOPLE TEND TO BECOME MORE AND MORE COLD , THE BOND BETWEEN THEM ARE BEING PULLED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY FROM EACH OTHER?UGLY SOCIETY.SO PRESSURISING.

Well instead of pushing all the blames to others or the society , i think i might just as well take it. Okays. Not studying enough for it or put in my best , my fault. Not caring enough or make him du lan , my fault.This all lies within my personalities , my fault. BUT I'M JUST SO ATTITUDE. THAT'S ME.TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.

I think , instead of sitting down here doing nothing , i think i might just go and make a study schedule.Hope that i will follow it.

P.S : I've my ROJAK TODAY. =D

2007-08-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

HILARIOUS ! xD

Hahas.I logged into my friendster just now and i came across some bulletins that's really making me laugh until so hard.

First.
31 WAYS TO MAKE A GIRL SMILE.

1. Tell her she is beautiful
ME : I would like him to say it when he really mean it.

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . .even if its just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
ME : For what? LOLS

5. Wrestle with her :)
ME: ( Fun. =D )

6.Don't give her attitudes.
ME: ( TMD... )

7. If youre talking to another girl,when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her...let her know she's yours and they aren't.
ME: ( As if he will )

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
ME: ( Did he? )

9. Introduce her to your friends . . .as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.
ME: ( I played with his hair more than mine )

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it

13. Make her laugh
ME: ( ZEBRA )

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
ME: ( on bus )

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
ME: he did not do it. He keeps on apologizing only.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
ME: only when i ask , then he will tell.

17. Every guy should give their girl 4 things:
- a stuffed animal (she'll hug it everytime she goes to sleep)
- jewellery (she'll treasure it forever)
- one of your t-shirts(she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweat shirts sprayed with her cologne!!!
- flowers or something occasionally.
ME: so far , he gave me a cards and stuffed toys only when i just had my operation. No jewellery , his t-shirt or even flowers.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something,even if its'n simple and inexpensive,it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
Me : ...He forgot my birthday...

25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever,take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute.Girls don't necessarily have to have hours of long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
ME: totally agree with this point.Don't ever give me empty promises.

27. Give her what she wants

28. Recognize the small things . . .they usually mean the most.
ME: he do not care about small little details.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang with your girl friend all the time
ME : Not all the time. I don't like it.

31.If u care about her...SHOW her!

Guys repost this if u would do it.....
Girls repost this if u think its sweet......
Repost this as "31 Ways To Make A Girl Smiles"If you dont then you have trouble with your love life till you are 50...
ME : AS IF... xD Have you done all this things to me ?

Next ; Why Does Girl / Boy Cry.

Why Does Girl Cry ?

1. They're sad...
2. They're scared...
3. They're nervous...
4. They're frustrated...
5. They're missing someone...
6. They're alone...
7. They're PMSing...
8. They're pregnant...
9. Their heart is broken...
10. They're in love...
11. Their souls have been torn...
12. THEY MET A BOY THEY CANT HAVE...
13. They fell in love with a boy...
14. They hurt so bad inside...
15. They're mad...
16. Something bad happened...
17. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING

MEN ; If any girl you know is crying and you see them, don't just stand there and say you're sorry. Hold them and tell them everything will be okay, even if you have no idea what is wrong with them.
Girls just want to be held and know that someone cares about them.

Why Does Boy Cry ?

1. Girls screw them over...
2. They just got hit in the balls...
3. They're about to die...
4. Their heart is broken...
5. Because they are true men.
6. Got cheated on and took her back,then it happened again

GIRLS ; If you see a man crying, hug him close and hold him up as he gets over the pain of getting kicked in the nuts.Tell him he's not going to die, and if he's crying over a girl...hug him and kiss him and let him know you won't screw him over and break his heart like the last girl did. Men just want to know that our girls will be there for us to support us when we need them and help us get our mind off the pain of heartbreak,getting kicked in the balls, and knowing we're gonna die.

ME : I found this very true.Hahas.As why the boy cry , the statement of getting kick in their balls makes me laugh until out of breath. xD

Hey dear , if you're looking at this post , remember , GIRLS CRY WHEN THEY JUST FEEL LIKE IT EVEN WHEN OUT OF NO REASON.

SCROLL UP AND SEE WHY GIRL CRY THEN ; YOU WILL REALISE. =D

2007-08-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

I'M MISSING ROJAK !
I WANT TO EAT ROJAK !
ROJAK ROJAK ROJAK !

AWWWWWWHHHH. I've the urge to eat ROJAK and drink GREEN TEA ! Damn. LOLS. ROJAK !!! With cuttlefish and taupok and fried youtiao! Best , the sauce !!! As for green tea , I WANT TO DRINK POKKA GREEN TEA !!! Hahas. Feel like eating Takoyaki too now. xD
DOUBLE CHEESE ! Delicious man ! xD I think i'm going to eat all this tomorrow ! I shall buy the Takoyaki from the pasar malam at Fajar ! Then the rojak from Fajar shopping centre then Green Tea from Shop and Save ! 1.5 litre that kind ! WOW ! SHOIK MAN ! But let me calculate the amount. $2.50 ( Takoyaki ) + $ 1.50 ( Green Tea ) + $3 ( Rojak ) = $7 OMG. Adding on to that i need to go kbox on wednesday and i'll be watching movie tomorrow. OMG. =( Freak. There goes my 1 week allowance of $25 again. =( Kbox, need at least $15 ; movie at least $15 too. Die. $37 ? LOLS. I need more $12. Freak. AWWWWWWHHH. Forget about my rojak , takoyaki and green tea. =( but i still need $5. AWWWWWWHHHH. Hope my mum can treat me Takoyaki and Rojak ! xD I think i should go Fajar with her then i can buy the Takoyaki and Rojak. FOC. xD

I had my tuition today. Sucks man.I owe my teacher about 24 homeworks.Disasters.Hahas.Doom.OMG.How am i going to hand it up by next saturday? Hais.Craps.SHUCKS.

Okays.That's all for today.I do not know what else to write.Let's end it here.Bye.

P.S : I want to EAT ROJAK ! TAKOYAKI ! DRINK GREEN TEA !

2007-08-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Dear , this post is for you especially.

This is a song by Backstreet Boys.

As Long As You Love Me.

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
How you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

Chorus
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like its deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like were meant to be

Chorus
Bridge

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're coming from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby.

P.S : As long as i love you. I DO.

2007-08-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

Stabbed HARD. There...My Heart...Bleeding...

Yes.

Crying now.I want to vent it all out.

Bloody hell.I'm afraid that i cannot hang on anymore.But...i know , no matter how hard i will still hang on to it.

I feel so sad now.EXTREMELY.

Excruciating pain.

Every words he said.It's like millions of needles , piercing through me.Especially my heart.Looking at the conversations i had with him in msn , looking at the questions, why had i became worse. Different from last time.

He asked , " you dunno rite? " Actually , i was going to answer i know. But i want to hear what was his thoughts. I answered him i did not know the reason. He said , " cos alot prob happen n cause u to reboot urself.n nw u r like a new software n dono hw to control yet.1 day u will noe n u will control it well..." I was trying to tell him that.Yes.Partly it's because many problems happened but , i did not reboot myself.Instead , it's because i've became much more cold-hearted.I've became cold-hearted.That's the fact.I knew myself.I've became more defensive in order to protect myself.I'm very selfish.I'm a pathetic weakling low creature.

Please do not apologize.Don't keeps saying it's your fault.This kind of matter , nobody have the right to say if he or she is in wrong.Everything happened , happened for a reason.Perhaps it may lead to a bad ending at the point of time.But as we grow , when we looked back , we will realise and was gratified for the reason.Nobody will know what's going to happen next.And my dear , not every new software tend to be and possess better quality.I'm a live example here.Right in front of you. I'm worse.Full of errors.Because of the past i've been too passionate and that leads me to what i am now.More cold-hearted.I've always think that eventually , everythings will end with rainbow.I'm wrong.Not everything.Sometimes , it maybe turning for the worse.I'm so hurt by your words.

I really do love you but obviously you are doubting.Why you said you wasn't ? I want facts here.FACTS.Tomorrow i will be going alone to NUH. It's not the first time. I'm already used to the feeling of going to NUH alone.Being in the operation room facing all those unfamiliar faces alone...It's like i'm used to it.No more feeling or any big deal with i'm going to NUH alone or whatever.I've went for the checkup last year alone.This year , not any exceptional too =) so what's the big deal here. Dear , i'm not blaming you that you can't accompany me.I knew the reason and there's no reason for you to play truant in order to accompany me. I can do it myself. Don't worry. I'm quite independent for your information. =) I can predict.After you've read this post , you will become damn moody again, sad? Perhaps? since if that's the matter , i apologize to you first and please do not take it to heart.I know i'm getting worse.

If oneday , you cannot tolerate anymore , feel free to leave me bahs.I will not hold you back even i do want it badly. I know i'm not good enough for you. Just go. I would not blame you as i will promise you.
I will not bite you anymore.No longer biting you.This is all i deserve.Yes.Karma. =)

In fact , i do not feel like saying all this. I've no choice. I know i'm turning for the worse everyday. One day , you will eventually erupt as you could no longer tolerate me anymore.

I really feel like loving you not just one more day but many many more days ahead in the future.Holding your hand.The big hand i used to hold.Still keeps on holding to it tightly.Arm in arm like we used to , many many days ahead in our future.I do not like saying goodbye to you.If out of no choice ... i guess... i will still have to say it..

I do not know what i'm babbling about now.Sorry.I'm too sad.Due to that , it cause me to lose myself. However , i know i love you.Please stay by me.Stay by be it the old or new me.Just stay by me.Don't wander too far away from me.I'm afraid to lose tracks of you.I'm afraid it's not coming back.Don't go too far...Please stay by the distance where i can still see you.Your presence...

P.S : No matter who you are , what you are , previous or now.I'm still loving you be it last time or now.Still. No less.Not reducing a bit.

2007-07-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

GREEN TEA FANATIC =D

I'M A TOTAL GREEN TEA FANATIC =D I've been drinking green tea non stop since 310707 afternoon. LOLS. I've drank 2 bottles of 500ml green tea and 1 bottle of 1.5 litres of green tea. Steady arhs. xD

I woke up at 5 am that day =( bloody chicken early. I had my practical science exam. Physic and Chemistry. BLOODY CHICKEN. I broke a test tube while washing up. Not my fault la. The stupid test tube larhs. Slipped out of my hand... Okay larhs. I admitted it's my fault due to my carelessness. Fortunately , no need to compensate for it. Phew~ So suay also =( Accidently burnt my hand while doing chemistry practical. Blame it all on the stupid lighted splint to test for hydrogen gas. ARGH. ( Okay...i'm so clumsy. ) Sprained my ankle too. Suay. I just at there shake shake shake then * crack * OMG. =(

Anyway , OH MY FUCKING GOD. HE READ MY PREVIOUS BLOG. He was quite upset by it and i could see it. I was very slow larhs.Previously his personal nick was " I love sweating " then i was like. Okay. you love to go play basketball and sweat while venting out all the unhappiness.Then ! I realised , he was refering to me. I've made him so sad. I'm really sorry ! Jialat Jialat Jialat. I think , i'm really a bad stead. Very , extremely bad stead. So inconsiderate and so uncaring. I do not care how he feel.bad.Bad.BAD. Hais. Dear , if you're looking at this post of mine , It just that i've to make a justice for you as i've accused you.

EVERYONE LISTEN UP.

I'M A BAD BAD BAD STEAD TO HAVE

INCONSIDERATE`

UNCARING`

HORRIBLE`

LOVE TO BITE PEOPLE`

INSENSIBLE`

INSENSITIVE`

SLOW`

ATTITUDE`

I wish i could atom for my mistake but he already very sad le. What's done have been done. =( somemore , he's still very moody.Yesterday i accompanied him to Causeway point to retrieve his uncle's handphone. By the time we reached there , HOLY GOD. It's closed. I'm the slow poke and caused him all the troubles.He could not retrieve his uncle's phone back. Sorry.He has been moody for days.All my fault.So sorry. =((
Hope that he will cheer up.

Tomorrow i will not be attending school.Instead , i will be going back to NUH to have the nylon string pull out. * Pull * Ouch. xD This few days been quite fun.I've been using the gore scar of mine to scare the girls. Fun. xD

Okay. Talking about smurfy. xD He took the same bus as me today.SURPRISING. =D I SAW HIM =)) I was like chua tio when he took the same bus as me and i was totally on the cloud nine =D Oh ya. He walked past my table during the recess in canteen.HE SMILED TO OTHER GIRLS.BLOODY CHICKEN.So envy ~ Hais.Anyway , i realised today that his side view makes him good looking.Hahas.I remembered on that day when i was having my literature prelim , his class suddenly walked into the combine prelim classes and i saw him looking at me =DD lols.But i was too engrossed in rushing for my literature paper that i looked away from him. =( Damn it. Missed the chance to look at him. xD It's alright xD Tomorrow i could not see him le.I'm going to NUH.See him on Monday xD
( Don't be mistaken. =) He's only my eyecandy. The one i love still him. =D )

Hmms.As for now.I've got nothing more to write. If i got something to add on , i will come and post again =D

2007-07-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

PMS and some happenings is making me down...

Well , i guess i'm having PMS. I'm getting real down in mood here. Then suay suay today happened so many things , making me really feel like dying.So infernal.

Firstly , in the great big early morning i was being kaobei by my mum.She nagged and nagged making me feeling so pek chek. Next , great. Came my ex asking for patch. For fuck should i patch with you when in the first place you're the jerk who broke off with me? Big deal arhs if you've been waiting for me for about 1 yr. My problem? Who caused me to go and cut my wrist and was living in hell that period of time? Who caused me to hate some songs that reminded me of you.FUCK IT. I HATE YOU. YOU CAUSED THE FUCKING MISERY IN ME THAT PERIOD OF TIME , MAKING ME LOSE MYSELF and NEARLY COULD NOT FIND IT BACK.FUCK YOU.

Third.I was damn bloody hell sad when speaking of this.I was reading through all the previous sms yesterday night and i've found those which contained the disappointment messages.It was about the few weeks ago things. Still remember ? Heart break over him thingys? Yes. The memories came back again , bringing along the disappointment and devoured me.I can still feel the pain , hurt , disappointment and betrayed feelings in me.I was hurt by many empty promises of his which lead to feel the acute pain in my heart , disappointment that he had let me down and felt betrayed due to his lies.I'm utterly upset by it. Totally. I can still remember how coldly he has treated me.How his want care don't want care attitude towards me.How i struggled to put on a smile or even a laughter whenever i was meeting him.But.He could only realised it whenever i'm really down and weak at that point that i could not longer smile or laugh.That's when he realised.He thought that i've never realised that there were other existed characters in his heart.Hey man. I knew it long ago. I was just keeping quiet. =) preventing things from getting worse.I started to choose not to believe in you and every single words from you logically but in the end ? I still trust you and well , this is what i got in the end.Ha.I'm a loser.You're the winner. You gained my trust and i lost you.You won. =) I do understand why do people say that after we have lost something , then we know how to cherish while regretting about what we've lost.Subconsciously , my self defencing wall in me have been built up. It was to prevent me from falling so hard after being hurt by you so many times.The words that you said to me ,still impact me alot. Remember ? 要骂我就不要管我 This sentence do impact me a lot. That time. I was trying to comfort you and yet this was the scolding that i got it from you. You never realised that this sentence do hurt me deeply inside.Forget it.I take it.I still trying to find ways to cheer you up and thanks. This is what i got. Thanks so much.You won't realised how much i do care for you.I wasn't scolding you. I was comforting you and you asked me to ignore you. Is this appropriate? LOLS. THANKS SO MUCH. As for today. I knew that you've been trying hard to cheer me up. But some of your words are provoking me without self realising. Some words that i said to you , i knew it was hurting but i still said it to you as i want you to feel how i was feeling. Have you ever realised ? It was intentional. I did it on purpose.I was grateful that you are trying to cheer me up in every ways that you could find but you also shown me attitudes during the process of cheering me up while comforting me.I thought you will come find me and i will pass you the letter. Oh yes. I've wrote you a letter and guess what. I've burnt it. Yes. I took a lighter and i burnt it. The letter was folded into heart shape , with your name written on it , decorated nicely. I've wrote many words that i wanna said it to you in it. I don't like dilly-dally. Since i knew you were not coming , i have it burnt. I felt that my effort have gone down the drain.Ha,I took the effort to apologise in the letter.All those words to comfort you. But...It's alrite. It have turned into ashes anyway.You will also never realised that i'm crying now when i'm writing this blog.Hahas.PATHETIC.It's alright.I've been through so many this kind of situation that it have slowly become immune to it.Me having the heart break here. What's the big deal ? You would not realise it anyway.As what i've said , i do not like dilly-dally. If you can't accompany me to NUH on Friday , it's alright. I can understand. Stop giving me an answer of " i will try " It jus like you're giving me the hope that you will accompany me yet taking away the hope from me in the end. I do not like it. I LOATHED IT A LOT.I've tried so hard and get so far.In the end , it doesn't even matter. =)

Lastly , bloody chicken. I've missed 3 subjects that i have prelim on. I got to took it on wed and thursday. As for tomorrow. More bloody. I will be having my physic and chemistry practical. FUCKING KNN. Still need to write the testimonial again.I thought i have handed in to Ms ng? FUCK. Still need to do. I still owe Noel his homeworks. SHIT . This is totally making me wanting to commit suicide or cut my wrist. Okay. Your may say that it's stupid to do so but. It's kindda of releasing stress while escaping from reality for a moment. Let me be abled to breath and rest for a while. =) I think i shall go and do my testimonial le. Take care. Bye. =D

P.S : LIFE SUCKS. FUCK THE HELL OUT OF THIS KINDDA OF LIFE.

2007-07-30T15:29:00.000+08:00

MORE PHOTOS TAKEN ON RACIAL HARMONY

Me and YongQuan Bro =D

Me and Rueben again ! xD
Don't Try To KISS ME !

Me and JingTing =D

Me and Jack Pa. Look alike? LOLS.

THREE SENIORS =D
ZHONG RUAN GROUP ROCKS xD

Next , I will be showing my Zi Lian photos again that i've took it during Racial Harmony Day too xD
[ If you don't feel like looking at it , Skip it and go to see others =) ]

My Zi Lian xD

Hmms?

Mirror Reflection. Took it in Kovan Toilet xD

What?Look Look Look... xD

The Grudge? xD

The Grudge II ?

Normal Shooting.

TOMBOY ! Fancy wearing YongQuan's Cap xD

DONALD DUCK ! QUACKS~ xD

NEXT NEXT NEXT !

SENIORS IN PERFORMING SUIT

LYNN BUSH ! BEL BUSH ! VIAN BUSH !
THREE BUSHES IN ACTIONS! xD

BEL BUSH and VIAN BUSH!
LAOPO! xD

NOT FINISHING YET ! STILL MORE TO GO ! xD
Next Topic ; KIAYIM'S CHIPMUNK!

KiaYim's Dale and SamSam's Chip

NICE EDITED =D !

Great Job Kiayim !

DALE !!! =D

and then...Random pictures =)

I have it done when i was feeling very down that time.

End of all Photos xD

2007-07-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

THANKS FOR THE CARD AND THE SOFT TOYS =D

AWWWWWHHHSS!!! YOU'RE SO SWEET !!!
THANKS SO MUCHH FOR THE CARD ! I'VE READ IT!
SO TOUCHING~!!!!

Hahas.Ain't them beautiful? Of course it's beautiful narhs.It was given by him ! =D Inside the card. Wow. Your should read it. It's so touching.When i first read it , i was totally like " OMG... " I'm so touched that i want to cry at that point of time.I've looked at the card closely and with such a long time. The card was being sealed up with his own sticker that had his name on it. And inside the card , i love the sentence which said , " Whenever you are down , u can find me , i will try my best to get to you and cheer you up , my dear... " OMG. When i read it , i was totally knocked out by you. So touched. He bought me those soft toys too ! I'M LOVING THEM =D He gave me a mickey mouse couple and a winnie the pooh.I'm going to give him the minnie! That represent me okays? LOLS. Remember my face when you're looking at minnie ! * Hug You TIGHT *

Somemore the card was from hallmark.Just a simple card and it would cost about $2 plus? OMG. He just lost his $50 yet spending on those for me.Not i want to nag but he would not have enough money to spare for himself ! Don't buy such expensive things for me next time okay? BUT THANKS SO SO SO MUCHH !

Today i took another couples of zi lian photos after the operation.I'm looking better than yesterday ! Don't you think so? xD

WAHAHAS ! Yeahs ! I'm feeling much more better =D Hahas. Guess what. My meimei has found out that i was using her handphone to transfer all the photos and was calling me thief. LOLS.She said in a sarcastic manner ," Oh gosh. Recently the security level is not good enough , even your own family member will steal from you and ... " xD LOLS. THE POT WAS CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK ! LOLS. She did steal from me my clothes before from my closet without my permission and took my concealer , used it until it's going to be finishing soon. Who's worse here? LOLS. Think twice girl ! xD Most hilarious happening was that she actually took all those clothes of mine to wear and take picture only. =.= MY GOD. Dirty my clothes in just a split second and threw it back to my closet. Goodness sake.Haisya. Hack care her. =X LOLS. ( I admitted that i'm in fault too. )

Anyway , he was very sad.He called me just now , sounded so sad. I felt so helpless. I could not be by his side when he need someone to accompany him and listen to him. I has failed to do my part. I'm so sorry.I felt so useless too.I just could not seem to be cheering him up , instead , making him feeling worse. GOD DAMN IT. It's my fault. Sorry. * Huggies *
What i want to tell you is , I REALLY WANT TO BE BY YOUR SIDE AT THAT MOMENT and WISHING TO MAKE YOU FEELING ABIT BETTER...But you seem to be busy smsing someone else...It's alright. CHEER UP OKAYS? I'm here for you.Really.I'm here.You can lie on me when you're tired and i shall carry you and go on together.I can carry you.No worries. I'm strong. =) When everything seems to be against you , trust me. I won't be the one back facing you. I will be THE ONE, opening up my arms to hug you tight and tell you it's gonna be okay and be alright.You must be alright.When everythings fall , i will be the one standing for you to rely on. =D * huggies * You've got me. =) Hope everyday goes well for you.Everythings gonna be alright. =)

P.S : I really will update the rest of the racial harmony photos real soon ! =D Sorry ! and HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL FOR YOU !

2007-07-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

EYE OPERATION ! FREAKISH !

OMG.I had my eye operation yesterday and it's really scaring the wits out of me.Imagine this ! You're conscious through out the operation and you're clear-minded enough to hear the sound of them using a scissors and cutting the flesh that belongs to part of your body.It goes " ZIP ZIP ZIP " It's really a BIG BIG OH MY GOD.The feeling of being alone in the operation room came running back haunting me again.Once again , no one i was familiar with was with me. I was all alone. My mum really omg.She was not by my side , instead , she was at the other end of the side where she could still see me but was very far away.GOODNESS.Fancy being so bloody far from me when i need her the most. Really omg lors. I was wearing his jacket while having the operation.Fear overtook me.I was grabbing the jacket very tightly.My right hand was clenched tightly as i was very scare and nervous.I was wondering if i would cross over at that point of moment.I overheard the doctors' conversation , from the previous visit and guess what their conversation was about.

" I think she should need a operation. "

( The SHE was refering to me. )

" Yes. I think so too. "

" It's so funny. Perhaps she would be like the girl from previous similiar operation "

" Oh yes. * giggling * she fainted while having the operation. "

" she was losing alot of blood. Ha... "

Diaos. I was just there i beg their pardon. Do they think that i'm some kindda of invisible? I would be having my operation soon and yet that was what they said making me more afraid.Bloody stupid.LOLS.Forget it. I had my operation.

Kindda of scary ? It's my scar. 3 ugly stitches.I was being told that my scar going to fade away in 5 mths time. Well , i do hope so.I will be having my prom night on 231107. Please let it fade away in time before my prom night ! I will be going back to NUH to have the stupid nylon string being taken out. I wonder if it will be painful. AWWWHHHS~ I was kicking up a fuss yesterday night. I was devastated when i looked into the mirror and felt like crashing all of them. I was hideous enough without the scar but now is SUPER DUBER HORRIBLE TERRIBLE VEGETABLE MISERABLE HIDEOUS as i has the scar with me.

=( PATHETIC.

I took this yesterday after i had my nap. VERY UGLY FREAK.BUT it's alright. I'm just trying to show your if my left face look swollen . When i was looking at the mirror , i looked so much like as if i've got into a big fight and had an " AU-BA-KAK " on my left eye.GOODNESS. I feel like wearing sunglasses everywhere under the sun and anytime. IT'S TOTALLY HIDEOUS. OMG. The wound would bleed sometimes , having the blood flowing down on my face as if i've cried a blood tear. GOTHIC . =D Oh ya. I must also thank god for letting me have my fringe long enough to hide my scar. If not , i think i will be scaring people around me in the broad daylight. Thanks =D

I was giving up myself yesterday , crying like a mad woman and feeling so pek chek and du lan due to the wound. It was not suppose to touch water and this fact is making me so bloody hell du lan. THIS IS TOTALLY DEPRIVING THE JOY OF BATHING FROM ME. I could not enjoy my bath , enjoying the feeling of water running down my face. FREAKO. WORSE STILL. I could not use facial form to wash my face. It's so dirty and oily for godsake.Pimples are going to breakout soon.ANYTIME. ARGH~ Hope i'm going to be fine today. GOD BLESS.

P.S : I've not finish uploading the pictures of harmony yet as the space is being limited ! DAMN IT. I think i will show it some other days. WISHING ME GET WELL SOON ! =D

2007-07-28T00:07:00.001+08:00

RACIAL HARMONY DAY PICTURES AS I PROMISED ! =D

ME AND MY DEAREST LAOPO~

ME AND LYNN BUSH

ME AND WEIYING~

ME AND KHARI~

ME AND KAILI~

ME AND RUEBEN~

ME AND FADHLI~

ME AND ISA~

2007-07-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

FREAK. PRELIM IS STARTING ON MONDAY !!!

OH MY TIAN~ With so little time yet so much things left undone.WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO NOW ?!! GOD DAMN IT. JIALAT LIAOS.Well , to be honest , i'm so much afraid that i might fail my prelims. Goodness.SUCKS. WHY MY SCHOOL IS HAVING THE PRELIM SO BLOODY EARLY? Everyone is now rushing like mad. Do they think that it is possible for us to excel in every subjects and score in every exams in such a short period of time? * Banging my head on the table * CRAZY. It's totally INSANE yet showing out Singaporeans' spirit perfectly. KIASU . xD My school is just bloody kiasu. It does not mean that we are prepared to go for our O's but do we have to resort to this kind of kiasu way to ensure that we are being mentally prepared for it? GOODNESS.It's alright. I'm going to read my Literature book tomorrow. Hahas.Memorising those " powerful codes " that ensure and able us to score in our literature. IS THAT TRUE? Nowadays i'm bad in memorising anything. I'M DOOM.
ARGH.
Forget about it. Let's change topic.
270707 is my bro birthday but we were celebrating it earlier for him.Anyway,HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIDI =D !!!
I went to my mama's house today to celebrate and it was so tired. LOLS. I drank many different kinds of wine and beers. First i was drinking tiger beer , next i was drinking white and red wine. Lastly , i was drinking vodka.LOLS.CRAZY. I think the best part is when i ate 1/4 cooked beef. Delicious but too chewy and hard =X hahas.OMG. PEIYU WAS WITH ME JUST NOW. =D We were having a whale of time and shoik man ! =D I LOVE YOU PEIYU =D
Speaking of this , let me introduce my another bestie ! PEIYU =D She and i got to know each other when we were in primary 3. We are neighbours and omg. Can you imagine just now when i was with her , memories just keeps flowing back. MARVELLOUS. I'M LOVING IT ! =D We shared many memories back then and it was all so hilarious. Remembering the " model catwalk " , " our CD " and all sorts of stupid yet hilarious memories , it was worth for us to reminisce. I was accompanying her to have her dinner just now , next we were in the room where we used to sleep together and played until like siao charbo. We were singing and talking about how's each of us now and what kind of life are we leading. She's such a sweet girl ! LOLS. I heard from her that her backbone is having some problems now.DO take care girl ! so worried ! I MISS HER LOADS ! I could not bear to part with her lors. We haven been seeing each others and chatted like we do last time for such a long long long time ago. This was the only chance i managed to meet her and chatted up with her.SHE HAS BECOME VERY VERY VERY CHIO. CHEER UP GIRL ! EVERYTHING GONNA BE ALRIGHT =D JIO ME OUT WHEN OUR EXAM END ! OUR KBOX ! =D

KBOX...thanks for reminding me that i'm running out of cash
=( recently.SHIT.I need LOADS of money now.I'm gonna save up for my prom night , my holidays and my needs ! MY GOOD GRACIOUS. Where am i on the hell on earth going to find that large amount of cash being given the limit of having 5 mths left ?!! GOSH.

HEY HEY HEY !
Stop THINKING about holidays and all can or not? It's disrupting me by not be abled to concentrate on my works ! BUCK UP BUCK UP ! CHIONG FOR THE PRELIMS! CHIONG ARHS! GO GIRL GO!

I think i will end here today. I shall update the photos i have taken yesterday during racial harmony day. =D Oh ya. Forgetting to mention , i'm out during the semi final. I WAS UNFAMILIAR WITH THE LYRIC AND I WAS OUT. =( SAD TO SAY. IT'S ALRIGHT. It's life experience afterall =D ( though i'm having a bad day yesterday , but that doesn't really matter now ) =D it's getting late , i will be hitting the sack soon =)
GOODNITE !!!

P.S : Perhaps i'm watching Harry Potter tomorrow =D

2007-07-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

OTHERS THING EXCEPT LOVE TOPIC ARE HERE IN THIS POST.

Prelim is coming in a wk or so.Haven even prepared for it yet.I guess.I don't have the mood to prepare for it bahs.Hahas.I've went for my medical check-ups on Friday and guess what the doctors said to me. They suspected that it maybe a tumor. I would be having my operation on 27th July. It's the day that i would be having my prelim too. The prelim date has crashed with my operation date.How am i going to survive through it? I was also being told that the operation would left a scar on my lower eyelid that would be quite obvious but will fade away in only 5 months time.My goodness sake.I started to loathe studies and wished to go M.I.A . I wish to escape from reality and wander around while reminiscing the memories. STRESS. FREAKING STRESS.I realised , my dream is so much far from me.

I've made a calculation.In order to get 10 points for my O ,
Here are the target i must achieve.

English - A2
Mother Tongue - A1
Math - A2
Combined Sci. - A2
Combined Humanities. - A1
Literature - A2
= 10 points.

FREAKING HARD TO GET.
My dreams are getting farther and farther from me...
UNLESS miracles appeared.

2007-07-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

MISSING YOU STILL ... STILL .

Since that day. I was really sad. So do you. Stop saying to me that we both are too engrossed in ourselves.What i want to say , you want to say are different.You've made a fake move , telling me that you want to leave me. Do not want to be tied down by love.Stop explaining , there is no such need to explain.Some words you want to say but you hestitated.You warmth my heart and my life . I still thought i'm the only hand you would be holding.Since it was like that ,stop loving me.Forget my gentle side.Do you know , i could not bear to hang up the phone even though you've hung up the phone.Our hands used to hold each other tightly , but , not to eternity.All the promises you've made to me , i've thrown it all away.So, stop loving me. Take it as i was very free and at ease.I used to make all the effort and became the slave of your love.Keeps on lying and telling myself that you love me.No matter how hard it have been on me , i was still hanging on to it.Eventually , we still chose freedom and slowly let go.I remained sitting there silently ,totally blank ,deleting all the memories i had with you and tried my very best not to contact you. Slowly , i said it out to you. Thank you that you once loved me...

P.S : The saddest thing in love life is loving someone who used to love you. But , I will still be here for you ...

2007-07-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

ZAPPED BACK TO REALITY.

Me.Him.No More. Sad to say that but it is reality.I must accept it no matter how hurts the truth is.The thing happened yesterday.Thank you.Thank you for telling me all the truth.I really appreciated it.Though we are not like last time as we used to be , i'm still hanging on.Out of the 8 , who will you choose? I wondered. High possibilities that i would be out. I wondered if i'm really acting strong , but i did not cry yesterday.Like you always told me.I will be strong. Don't worry. I always thought that i would be the one, my hand that you will hold.But i'm wrong.I'm not the only one.Thanks to this matter , we are more frank to each other now.We've only been smsing , no more talking on the phone , chatting merrily away.No more meeting each other and smile like those days.The memories with you haunt me every night. I have to cry myself to slp and how my heart breaks , this is the scene you shall see.I don't like to act. I acted as if i'm fine and go to school , jokes with them while playing a fool.I could not experience any joy in it except the acute pain in my heart.I tried to concentrate on my studies. I looked at the whiteboard blankly. Memories , ur looks keeps on running through my head.Tears accumulating in my eyes. I have no choice but to swallow it back. The feeling is so sucks. I loathed it. I acted as if i'm a flirt too , crazy over other guys. How i wish that you will be the one , turned around and glazed back at me.The messages that you sent , i could no decide if to believe it.I think , because of my imperfection , caused me to lose you.I lose ur heart. I have misplaced it. I wish to find it back.It's hard. How i wish that you could decide now and stop hanging me in the air not knowing what to do.How i wished.I cried at the mac finally. Jack and Yong Quan witnessed it. ( Sorry Jack and Yong Quan , i did not have the intention to stun your. ) Heart really hurts but i can't give up on you.Well , truth hurts but what can we do? I also wished that we are back like last time like you do. But , how could i do that when i'm already dashed by you? The blog song , i've put it for you specially. But it seem to me now that , my love could not get you home to me my dear. I've failed to do so.I'm sorry.

I think , here's the lyric of the song that i have always wanting to sing to you.But i guess , it's utterly late. I missed your train and could not get on it.

Never Let You Go.

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can't, believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go.

-End of the lyric-

I really mean it.
I will be fine , till the day that you comes back for me with you love for me.

Still . Loving . You . As . Ever

2007-07-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

Believe Him -OR- Ignore Him?

Hahas.That should be the topic for today.LOLS.I went to watch TRANSFORMERS with him on Sunday and everything went on as usual.It's just that i was wondering."Oh man.You're excellent in acting in front of me. " Hahas.Feeling quite hurt? I went to the park alone and walked.Then Monday i was like meeting him again.Out of the blue, i asked him , " I am very curious to know why you blocked me in msn. " A bewildered look appeared on his face. Hahas.I was damn hilarious larhs. I sat there thinking , " HERE COMES THE GREAT ACTOR AGAIN... " OH GOSH.I'm very sarcastic. =X Nvm larhs. I choose to believe him anyway , just feeling a bit suspicious of his words. ( Even till now. =X ) Ya. Today i was told by Sihui that he got more than one girlfriend ask me not to be his girlfriend.After hearing it , i made such a remark , " Not my problem la.He got how many then how many lor . Who are him to me anyway ? " And i shrugged.Sihui claimed that i was putting on a nonchalant facial and indeed , i was. =) How hurt i was at that point of moment.So? Someone confessed to him , he at there LOLS. LOLS LORS as if i care. But i really do. =( Stupid larhs.Then i told him that someone told me he got a load of girlfriends and he flared up. He say i don't believe him and blah blah blah. Obviously i don't logically but my heart trust him.STRANGE.I need more sources to cross reference to see which of them is correct.Hais.I don't know what's on his mind.I'm so depressed and devastated.I think i going to sing that song " UNFAITHFUL " .The thoughts of how much i've sacrified for him , sometimes i think , it's not worth.I've rejected so many of the boys.BECAUSE OF HIM.Yet how i was being treated by him LIKE THIS.I felt the efforts i've made for him have gone down the drain.Hais. ROAR. Though he keeps saying that he's going to pon school and accompany to my check-up tomorrow but , frankly , i don't believe. Yes i admitted that i told him not to accompany me but , HE IS SUCH A BLOCKHEAD. I don't really mean what i mean.He don't get it.Well ? ** shrugged ** He sounded like so sianed of me like that.Don't know what's the fucking hell wrong with him, OR perhaps is the fucking hell wrong lies in me. FLIRT . Hais.But it's alright.Fortunately , i also got my SMURFY =D

WAAAAAHHHH.Speaks of him , i enthu liaos. Today he sat next to the table where i sat and looked at me when i was eating.I turned round and saw him looking at me ! =DDDD SO HAPPY =DDDD Then i keeps on laughing and giggling to myself the whole day. ** Spiritually Sick ** xD Hais.But.The one i love. I think is still Aubiber. As for smurfy, i think perhaps some bahs. I'M SO BAD. But , who asked aubiber makes me feel so insecure? His attitude towards me like want care , don't want care like that. ROAR. GO LARHS. GO TELL PEOPLE THAT YOU ARE STILL SINGLE. NO LIKING OF ANYONE INCLUDING ME LORS. Fuck it. I'm also so flared up.But who cares? Smurfy is enough to bright up my day. xD S-M-U-R-F-Y . SMURFY! =DDDD

Speaking of that , when i saw Isa , i think he really makes a good stead. He is so good to doremon.( Is EXCELLENT OKAY? )How envy i am , watching them lasting so long and still so lovely.ENVIOUS.How i wished i can too.How many steads aubiber have? I have no idea. FINE. I got no comment.I think later i will wake up at 6 am later and sms aubiber.Though i've already predicted that he will sms me this two words. " Ok good " but nvm, i'm contented.

Sianed.Prelim is just 14 days away. NABEI. My school is so kiasu. Fancy having the prelim when many teachers from other subjects haven teach finish the topic for O. Gosh.Gonna Fail. No. For the sake of smurfy , I MUST WORK HARD. I WANT GO POLY WITH HIM =D

I think i will end here for today.STRESSED OUT , DEPRESSED , DEVASTATED and ENTHU , that's me for today xD

P.S : SMURFY I CANNOT SEE YOU TOMORROW ! T.T

Sorry my lovely juniors. I could not attend school tomorrow and pass your the letters.But i do missing your ! LOVE YOUR STILL =D We Are The Forever Bastards Family =D

2007-07-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

I've Been Shattered .
How could he block me in msn.Why did he block me? Why must he block me? I could not figure out why.If he hates me, Why love me in the first place?I'm really shattered.Totally.I'm in a confuse state.Can i believe , all this while , i've been living in a lie ?Why did you do all this to me? I'm so disappointed.The truth is so painful when i just found out YET there's nothing i can do but to accept it.How can you be so fake.Why? I'm utterly disappointed in you.Heart shattered whenever i reminisced the memories i had with you.Is this all fake? It's so sudden.I must be glad that i'm the one who found it out.Rather i get to know it from other people.

I did not know whatelse to say.I'm utterly disappointed.I'm really sadded by you.Really...

I was lying to you just now.I'm not refering to my friend but you.When you asked me to fight for my right , do you know why i said will hurt my " friend " feeling? Very simple. I did not want to hurt you.I don't want you to feel that i'm not trusting you but the fact is right in front of me.I have no choice but to accept it.You said you will go negotiate with my " friend ". Are you able to negotiate with yourself? How can you protect me when that person is you, yourself? I did not know what to do.Can you teach me what to do? I should believe in you still or keep hurting myself still? What should i do? I feel like leaving you because i've been hurt YET , i still love you still. What should i do? Can you teach me? Now i'm all in a confuse state. I did not know to believe that you are faking in front of me or you are true to me. Can you be true to me? Can you stay the same? My heart really hurts. Nvm. I think i have made the decision to act blur in front of you and be with you no matter how hurt it is , until that day , if i really did not love you so.

So for now.
PLEASE STAY BY MY SIDE.

2007-07-07T11:20:00.000+08:00

STRESS.STRESS.STRESS.

Oh man.It's so bloody hell.I'm still sick. It have been one week.I keeps on coughing and coughing , NON-STOP. ARGH.Forget it.I will get better oneday eventually. xD I read a newspaper a few days ago and congrate , the area of my blk have became the black spot for the dengue fever stuff. =.= OMG. Perhaps i tio dengue sia. o.O hahas.Anyways.so stress this few days.I had about 3 tests yesterday in a row.MARVELLOUS.CHEM,EMATH ; LITERATURE.I did not know how to do those 3 papers.DOOM.I have taken back my report card yesterday and yarhs.I have done badly for it.The grades are enough to get me successfully into ITE without any doubt for it.SADDED.I did not show it to my parents of course as i can predict what's reactions they are going to have.I'm such a disgrace.Hais.
This week still not bad larhs.I keeps on meeting him.So coincidence.First i was in Bangkit with Huiyu as she lost her file and i went to find it with her.I met him with his friends.Initially i did not notice anything because i'm back facing them, it's Huiyu who spotted him.I asked Huiyu how she knew that it was him , She said because he kept looking at my direction. LOLS. Huiyu exclaimed that he was not bad looking lehs ** GRIN ** I'm feeling quite proud yet something amiss.I think it's because Huiyu also got mentioned one of his ex whom i knew too.She said," no wonder *** love him so long".After hearing this, i was like , ya.I think so too , agreed on what she has said. =) Next , i went to study in Mac at Bk Panjang plaze with Jack and YongQuan.They taught me Math and Chemistry.At first i saw Wee Peng and next Sihui , Erica , Clarence.They are also studying too.Nx I saw HIM.Ya.HIM.His friends all came afterward and it was totally hilarious.We are in three groups and in a row.The situation was totally awkward larhs.HIS GROUP , MY GROUP , SIHUI's GROUP.** Awkward ** As our thingy are being enclosed , not many people know about our thingy.Then yesterday.He came to find me after my tuition. =) So happy larhs.He cutted himself.Silly.Anyway, he met my frens in maple.He sounded like not happy because i told my friend that he was the one i like ? Don't know? Then he did not reply my msg this morning.Fine, suit him.I just have a bad feeling all over me yet i did not know what is it.Ominous signs. =X I haven finish my math homework yet and later i'm going to have my tuition at 2pm.=.= SIANED. I had a weird dream the day before yesterday. It was like so horrible.My ex came running to me madly asking me why i broke up with him.Terrible.Scared out of my wits.Haisya.Anyway i'm not in a good mood now.I think if i have anything else i will update later. =D

2007-07-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY SICK . WORRIES.
Hais.Till now I'm still down with flu and sore throat.since Saturday till now.I could not sing any song now.The feeling is so miserable.Awwwhh.Yesterday i went to his house despite that I'm sick.I'M SO GREAT LOR. =X Hahas.No larhs.Partly because i missed him too.His Ah gong was at home for goodness sake.Hahas.But it's alright.I saw him anyway.He was playing Maple yesterday and i was right beside him.YARHS.I had seen his maple stead.CUTE LOR. ** JEALOUSY AROSE ** She called him DAR while he called her DEAR. I'M SO BLOODY HELL JEALOUS." Dear come here " DEAR DEAR DEAR. WHAT ABOUT ME? =( FREAKING JEALOUS. I told him later when I'm going home , I'm going to meet Yong Hui.He was jealous.He told me that night that he was jealous.AS IF I'M NOT JEALOUS LIKE THAT.I smsed him right away. I wrote," I'm jealous of your maple stead " Afterward he became moody liao.OKAY.IT'S ALL MY FAULT.This morning when i woke up, i smsed him that i have woke up.He replied and yet i did not reply him back.I WAS FILLED WITH JEALOUSY.We did not sms or call each other later.

He finally called me when it was about 8 plus during the evening today.I picked up the phone.I sounded quite fierce? And yarhs.I cried over the phone ,with him on the another side.I was worry sick as i think the thing in the lower lid of my left eye is growing.I'm afraid that it might be a tumour.It was not pain at all.I had this once , it was just a matter that happened during last year and it dragged about 2 months.Thanks God that during that period of time , I'm in secondary 3 and that was not a tumour. Not like now.I'm having my O Level.I was so scared.I scared that it may drag and pull my studies down.Reminiscing during that period of time, i was having a hard time.I could not wear my contact lens ; need to put on medical oilmen inside my eyes ; dripped countless times of eye drops into my eyes. GOSH. The feeling is terrible. I had to wear an ugly spectacles of mine to school everyday. =( SUCKS. Just think of the process of the the operation is enough to make me traumatise.The loneliness and terrified feeling devoured me when I'm in the operation room , filled with unfamiliar faces operating on my left eye.2 bags full of cotton wools stained with my blood , Operation knife cut open my lower inner eyelid while i remained conscious through out the operation with both of my both wild opened eyes , seeing through the process of the whole operation.HORRIBLE.The feeling when i was in the operation room really sucks. It's like. No one is there for me. I felt so helpless but left with no choice but to hang on.I could not faint as i need to ensure them that I'm still alive by answering their questions." How are you feeling now? Are you still conscious? Is it painful? Are you afraid? ..." About 5 doctors are in the operation room taking turns to ask me questions while operating.FREAK.I HATE IT. I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK ANYMORE. IT'S INFERNAL.

DON'T TALK ABOUT THIS TOPIC ANYMORE.IT'S MAKING ME SICK.

THANKS TO HIM.I'M NOT CRYING NOW. =DD
He knew that I'm worry sick now.He keeps comforting me.Awwwhs.THANKS. =D I feel so touched frankly.Initially i thought that he won't call me today and was feeling quite disappointed but he called me eventually after such a long wait. =D He tried ways to make me laugh or even smile.He succeeded anyway.LOLS.I laughed when he talked craps with me.LOLS.It sure do cheer me up.You can be a counsellor le larhs. =D

Oh gosh.Huiyu left her file in the shop which we patronise just now.She was in such a panic.No worries my dear , i will accompany you to take your file tomorrow.Just ease your worries now for the moment.Everything gonna be alright and you will find you file soon =) .

Hope that Huiyu will find her file , my eyes will recover and i will recover from my flu and sore throat in no time. =D I think I'm gonna end here for today. I'M GOT TO BE STRONG ! JIAYOU !

2007-07-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

HAHAS.FOOLS.
Hahas.It's freaking hilarious when a blogstalk came to my blog and ask me not to speak vulgarities in the public as my mum did not teach me that never speak vulgarities while doing blowjob.Isn't it hilarious? Hahas. For the godsake.We can predict that the blogstalker must be really sian lahs.Always zuo bo.LOLS.I think we should be putting it in a way that he is REALLY BUSY.Hahas.Busy commenting at others blog and asking them for sex.Blowjob wor.Only he can think of this kindda of things.LOLS.He was so freaking funny lahs.Sorry to the blogstalker.Not that i want to be mean.But.Due to your attitude , i decided not to give in to you, this kind of pervert. =) Please get something to do for yourself.If you think life is bored , can't you do at least something more meaningful for yourself? Buck Up Please =D ONE MORE THING. Please have some respect for others people family. My mum have taught me not to spill vulgarities in the public.But it's up to me if i want to be obedient and listen to my mum.Please do not involve my family in it.Does it makes you feel good after cursing at others people family? What if i'm the one who is cursing at you right now and talking if your family have taught you any manners since young? Sorry. I would definitely not be like you , cursing at others family. Instead. I think this is the own personal comment that you made and this does not concern about your family at all , be it that did they teach you manners since young or not.
Get straight to the point , i just want to let you know , it's my blog.Please do have some respect for me.If you think my blog is very disturbing to you , well , my suggest to you , might as well don't read it. Don't you think i'm partially correct?Honest speaking , i do not see any fun in discriminating other's blog.If i'm a passer-by. After reading that person blog , be it i like it or not , i shall not make any comment. It's because i respect them.My tagboard is not here for you to spam or write any nonsense. It's for my friend. But , thanks for your comment anyway. Remember , do not judge the book by its cover. If i sounded bitchy or whatever in my blog , please do get to know me in real life before you think i'm really that bad.I would not mind if you known me and yet discriminating me. Instead , i will take it and try to change.After reading your comment , frankly , i'm not angry at all.Yups.So there is no point of being angry with you.You are not part of my life after all.So for fuck should i care.Perhaps you are just bored.Well , maybe.

If you return to my blog to discriminate me , please do read this before doing it.Thank you. =D Have a nice day too.

P.S: Try to change to make people like you more. =) Jiayou.

2007-06-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

FINALLY IT'S SATURDAY~ WOOSH!!!
I have been waiting for it since Monday =D hahas.Awwwwhhh.But i'm sick. I'm down with flu + sore infection + giddiness = VERY SICK. Hahas.I woke up in the bloody morning and was so sick that i had to go to the polyclinic.It was so bloody hell far from my home.I need to take LRT there. ARGH.Fancy a patient like me need to consult a doctor alone with no one beside me.POOR THING.Hahas.It's alright.I have survived through it.YEAHS =DD So hilarious lahs when i consulted the doctor.Hahas.Guess what have he told me.LOLS.
" Thanks God that you consulted a doc early. Fortunately the infection in your throat have not been spreaded to your lungs yet. "
LOLS. I found this sentence freaking funny.Hahas.What if i decided not to consult a doctor instead.LOLS.Am i going to die then?LOLS.After waiting for 4 hours in the polyclinic.FINALLY IT'S MY TURN TO SEE THE DOCTOR.Goodness sake. I can't believe that i have waited for 4 hours before i can see the doctor.Hahas.Perhaps got a patient who is very sick , need to see the doctor but need to wait for 4 hours before he can finally see the doctor.Hahas.Imagine that.He could be died by then.LOLS.Fortunately , i got the patient cos i'm a patient =X LOLS.
After consulting the doctor and bought the medicine from the pharmacy , i'm on my way to meet my mum at the Sheng Siong entrance.She bought me to the food centre and she ordered chicken porridge for me.It was nice initially but after eating for a few mouths , it was too sweet and thick for me. Maybe i'm sick and that's the reason why i found the porridge tasted awful after a few mouths.I'm full anyway. ( My mum ate up the rest of the porridge anyway. So i'm not counted as wasting food. ) =X Hahas.I slept the whole afternoon today after i have taken my medicines.Hahas.Blame it on the medicines.It made me so drowsy after taking it.Hahas.Anywas.I slept in at 3am on Thurday. I burnt midnight oil again for my Geography this time.AGAIN. There goes my beauty sleep xD hahas.

I was having my 'O' Level Mother Tongue oral on Thurday.Guess i have flunked it.I have done badly for it for godsake. It was such a disastrous. I was outside the IT Room 4 reading the passage for 5 mins before it's my turn to be called to go into IT Room 4 for my oral. I was having butterfly in my tummy. When i saw Ping Yan came out of the room. GOSH. It's my turn. When i walked in.It was kindda of funny scene.Hahas.There were 2 oral investigators. One from Singapore and one from China. It was totally hilarious. The China oral investigator asked for my IC. In mandrin it was known as " 身份证 " ( Shen Fen Zheng ) . I looked at her as if she was speaking Mars language that i could never master it. I looked at her with a bewildered facial expression. Hahas! I replied still with a bewildered look on my face. " 身...份...证... ? " Hahas. Then i suddenly realised that she was asking for my IC =.= i was totally embarassing myself in front of the 2 oral investigators. =.= AWWWH!!! Next i made another move that was totally making myself more embarassing. I looked into the eyes of the China Oral investigator as i passed her my IC. I made an remark. " 老师 , 我好紧张啊 . "( Teacher , I'm very nervous. ) She replied me in an heavy China accent , " 哎呀 ! 你可千万不能紧张呀 ! " ( Oh God! You musn't be nervous! ) Hahas. It was an hilarious conversations at the starting of the oral. Next, of course, i'm having my oral. I think i have it flunked. For the reading part. I was too nervous that i have misread a few words and for the conversation.I was a goner.The singaporean oral investigator was very fierce.She looked me in a stern way as she blurted out her question. " 在邻里区内建设较大型的购物广场,对于此事,你有什么看法? " ( What is your opinion on the matter of building a shopping mall in the neighbourhood ? ) Hahas. I answered her and she gave me another related question. " 对于此事,你认为会带来任何副面影响 ? " ( Based on this topic , do you think it will bring us any disadvantage ? ) i answered it again and the teacher asked me if i got anything to add on.I said no and she asked me to leave. I stood up , turned around and i start asking , " Where's the door ? " LOLS. I was utterly idiotic.

LOLS.I did not attend school on Wednesday as i was having a very bad cramp. He went to school but was reported sick and was being sent home next. Hahas. So coincidence.Hahas.Both of us were sick. xD.

On Friday , I was having my Geography test and the ccks idol second round audition.Hahas. I sang " 失忆 " ( Shi Yi ) by 梁静茹 ( Liang Jing Ru ) and i got in !TOP 8 =DD I'm so happy. Before it's my turn to be on stage , i was terrified. I wish that there was a hole for me to jump in and hide myself. I was too afraid to go up n stage. After singing the song that i have chosen , i felt relieved and went down of the stage and rushed for my tuition in Kovan. So rush. While i was running , i heard someone , i think he was from the basketball team from my school . He made a comment that i ran after i have sang the song , indirectly accusing me of being a coward. CHEEBYE la YOU. KNN. You thought i'm a coward? I would have stay provided that i do not have tuition on that day. PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU MADE THAT COMMENT. CHEEBYE KIA.FUCK OFF. I was fuming while rushing.But i did not turn back. If i have turned back and saw who was the one making the comment , trust me , i would have now put his name on my blog.Really very knn lors.I'm not a coward okay? At least i've got the courage to take part. How about you? Coward? =X OPPss! Sorry that i have made such a mean comment but till now, i was till fuming over that matter. ARGH. ROAR.

I did not eat for the whole day yesterday.I was sitting in Peijie's papa car and was feeling so giddy. Hahas. We have our tuition and next , i was sick. =.= ! WTF?! Hahas. Nvm, at least i did well for my audition but i think i flunked my Geography test. I think the reason is that i did not work that hard for it and that's the reason why i failed. It's a no wonder. Serve me right. =(

Oh ya. He did not go to park with me this morning. Instead, he went out with his friends. I think he have forgotten all about it. =( so sad. Luckly, i did not take your promise to me that serious or i would really be very sad and disappointed by now.Honest speaking , i was quite disappointed but , it's alright. =) I shan't say anything about it anymore until you realise yourself =)

Okays bahs.I shall stop here.I got to take my medicine le =D
Shall update you next time =D

P.S : Cher, sorry that i can't have tuition today and you can't get your tuition fee from me today.SORRY ! =X

2007-06-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

HORRIBLE TERRIBLE MISERABLE SCHOOL REOPENING WEEK .
So horrible.This is just the first week since school reopen and uncountable amount of tests are flooding in.OMG.IS THIS THE END OF WORLD?I could not believe it man.Hahas.Perhaps i'm still in my holiday mood. Lalalas~ =X OH MAN.I had my social studies test today.We were doing Source based questions and Essay Question. =( HORRIBLE ISN'T IT? Bloody chicken.I have burnt midnight oil for it till 2 am. I think i will be sent to China soon if i doesb't get enough of my beauty sleep. xD Hahas.Craps lah me.I will become a panda, with a pair of sunglasses. COOL =DD and definitely , i'm VERY VERY TIRED !!! I have been nearing falling asleep in class as i could not concentrate.My eyelids became heavier and heavier or better. I will be in a condition like i'm away from com. xD Hilarious. 2 or 3 days to go and it's Saturday and Sunday again.YEAHS! I'm going to sleep like as if i have never been asleep for years. xD It's going to be a tedious week for me.OH MAN. What have i done to deserve all this? I must have been cursed since i'm a baby ! xDD Hahas. I find this sentence very very amusing lah.Been cursed since i'm a baby ? =X xDD Hilarious. SHIT. I'm going to have time piece for my English lessons tomorrow doing the comprehension. SUMMARY... Gosh.Rubbing salt on my wound , I would be having geography test on Thursday. What The Hell. OH YA. And my O level Mother Tongue Oral. ='( CRAPS. I had seen the list of candidates and i will be the last candidates to take my oral from my class.HELP.After that , Friday , I would be taking part in the CCKS Idol Second round audition. So fustrated about what song should i choose and sing on Friday. I have heard that the audiences going to be the uniform groups and we will be in the hall.SHIT. It will definitely be very awkward lah. =/ Hope everything goes fine for me this week. =)

BLOODY HELL. It's so late now. I think i better get going and have my energy sleep. Do update you next time.

P.S : I SAW MY EYECANDY SMURFY FOR THIS PAST 2 DAYS. GAIETY =D

2007-06-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL REOPENING TOMORROW .OMG.SO SIAN LORS !!!Okays okays.Let's continue about him on my yesterday blog.He never went back on his promise to me yesterday.He called. We talked for about 18 minutes only

=( Okays.At least it's better then nothing.We chatted for awhile then like usual , i smsed him telling him that i'm going to hit the sack soon.I thought that he would not reply.It was around 2 am and he replied.I was still awake by that time as i was listening to songs.He last sms he sent to me was ," Sleep nite , muackx " I was so happy.It's been such a long time that he would send me this kind of message with a muacks on it.Hahas.Of course then i went to bed and slept soundly through the night.Today before i have woke up to sms him that i'm awake, he already did.HE SMS ME AUTOMATICALLY.Isn't it a MIRACLE?omg.hahas.i couldn't believe my eyes and was jumping for joy.Hahas.

He smsed me, " Lol i wake up le "

I replied him , " wa.so early.hahas. "

" ya haha "

" okays.go brush your teeth and wash up "

After a few minutes...

" done le "

" Good boy , lols... " and blahs blahs blahs somethings like this kind one and he last replied "Lol "

After that i went online and he chatted with me.He told me what every saturday he will accompany me to park in the morning and i answered that i will ai si ta le and he replied me with a " No no " i was like " Huh? What no no? " then he put this stupid face " Nth ^^ " ROAR~ I want to know the reason why he put no no . Heys. I really ai si ta le lors. He put no no like i dun love him le like thats. ARGH. But thinking from another bad view's , is it he does not love me anymore le? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH. IF IT'S REAL , I WILL BE DAMN SAD. I WILL CRY HIM A RIVER IMMEDIATELY. It's like after so much effort i had put in and that's what i get eventually , i will definitely break down. He haven call me yet. I doubt he will call tonight , hope that he call.

Now i'm in a confused state. I do not know what to do.Before him , i known a guy who is 1 year elder than me. He was asking me for stead that time and i replied him that we'll talk about this after my o level and we did not communicate with each other then. And worse , just now when i went online, he suddenly popped up to have conversation with me.I was wondering huh? I thought he got a girlfriend le?( His nick makes me thought that he have a girlfriend le =.= ) Then i replied in as a way of being courteous.Out of the blue, he asked me a question. " You still remember our deal huh? " I was again like " HUH? " and he said , " You promise to accept me when after o >.< " I was definitely horribly terribly shocked and stunned that i lost for words for a while seconds. I replied " But haven o yet marhs now." =X Hais.Really helpless.I really want to know if he still love me as ever. Uncertain , helpless , sadness is overtaking me soon. What should i do?

妳还爱我吗?一直好想问妳这句话.却又怕听到

你真实的回答.真的好想好想知道你的一百分会

给什么样的人.我有没有机会得到那一百分?

Oh.By the way. I went to Jurong Point today.I went to visit Xiao Eve who's working in Harvey Norman.Hahas.I accompany her to have her lunch and i saw her so called " Pan Wei Bo " and the what Allan. Hahas. =.= LOLS. I went along with my mei mei and she was really looking forward to take neoprints together with me.But we could not find a shop that basically for us to take neoprints with the neoprint machines. Well , Lady Luck were not on our side today.We shall take it next time mei. Dun be too disappointed =D Cheer Up =DD

School is reopening tomorrow and the days of waking up early in the morning are back to haunt us. SAD. I will be having my Geography test during the first week of school reopen. =( I haven study for it. Guess , i got to chiong for it le. JIAYOU FOR MY EVERY TEST NOW AND THEN ! Most of all , MY PRELIM AND " O " LEVEL! YESH ! I can predict that when i comes back from school tomorrow , i will be very tired and fall asleep immediately once my head touches the pillow.Hahas.Wonder , will i be falling asleep in school tomorrow. Hahas. =X That's great , i can see my friends tomorrow again.Hahas.Hope that they are all well and fine during this June holiday. =) Most of all , i wish that me and him would be back to as we are last time... =)

TOMORROW I WILL BE BACK IN SCHOOL TO SEE MY EYECANDY =)

SMURFY =)

Hahas.Missing him loads too =) Okays. I think i got to end here ; prepare for my school tomorrow. Update you next time. Hahas.

2007-06-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

Okay.It's alright.Let's talk about what happened to me yesterday night. =(( Yesterday afternoon.He called me and i was elated.He asked me to pay attention in my tuition class later ( as i was going to have my English tuition later in Kovan ) We chatted for awhile before we hung up the phone.Before he hung up , he reminded me to sms him when i was going to tuition.Okays.Everything went fine and i smsed him when i'm stepping out of the house going for my tuition.I waited for his reply.He did not reply me at all.I kept on looking at my handphone.Whenever i received a sms , i hoped that it was him.But. Nope. It wasn't . I did not give up. I kept on looking at my handphone even during the lesson time.No sms from him.I was so angry and disappointed that i told peijie who sat beside me during lesson. ( She and me are in the same English tuition class. ) I said if tonight if he calls , i will definitely pick up the phone and throw it into toilet bowl. ( OF COS I WOULD NOT DO THAT ) After i has ended my lesson , i smsed him that i'm being dismissed. Disappointed when he replied , " Good. "I thought at least he would talk to me something except just a word , " Good. " i replied, " Okay. " i was too sad to say anything else. I was like =.= sian diao and so sad lor for god sake. =( On the trip back home , i kept on looking at the phone still , not giving up yet.Finally i reached home , feeling so devastated and depressed.I put on an nonchalant facade and went on doing my things.I waited for his call , 1 hour passed by... Maybe it's still early i thought.Never mind , i continued waiting.2 hours passed by. It's 12am plus. My handphone was still lying on my table silently , no sms nor call from him.

I finally smsed him ," slp le ? "

He replied ," No "

Feeling a bit hurt and wondering why he did not call,

I replied, " Oh.Slp early as you're going out tomorrow.den..gd nite. "

i did not attempt to sms why he did not call me as my pride forbid me to do so.

" You go slp now? "

" No , not so early. "

" Why? "

" Doing homework. "

Actually i'm doing my homework while waiting for him to call.

He didn't.

" Wan slp sms me "

" Okay. "

We ended the conversation just like this.And my tears already filling up in my eyes.Still i was still hoping for him to call but, i'm wrong , he didn't call.I waited for his call till 3am and i gave up.i return to my bed and smsed him that i'm going to sleep.I'm not hoping for him to call anymore, instead , i'm hoping him to reply. About half an hour passed by , there was no signal from my phone.Tears started to flow out , non-stop.

Loneliness took over me as i cried on my bed silently.My siblings and mum were asleep and i did not wish to wake them up.I looked at my handphone's screen , no sms. I cried even harder.Really , i did not know what's on his mind.What am i to him.Hahas. I guess, nothing. A friend. I kept on crying as i reminisced the memories i had with him.I cried till 5 am and finally closed my eyes and went to slp.I was so tired from the crying.I started to dream. i dreamt about zhou xing ci xD so hilarious. why would i dream of him out of the blue? LOLS. In my dream , he was my boyfriend. What the fuck? lols.He treated me as what i always want a stead to be towards me.It was like so sweet.Hahas.While i was happily in my dreamland , my handphone vibrated. He sent me an sms that he was going out. I suddenly felt a sharp pain and angry that i replied, " orhs.take care. " and he replied that he will call me tonight. Will he? I don't know. Hack cares, i went on sleeping hoping that the dream will continue and so it did =) i was so happy in my dream , and so devastated in reality =(

Anyway. I think i will stop here now. If anything happened later , then i shall continue =)

2007-06-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

OH NO.
not enough memory for my photos =((
perhaps next time ?
sorry. =((

2007-06-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

MORE PHOTOS !!! =D

continue on the topi on SAND WRITING =D

My so called " mermaid tail " xD

MY NAME =DD

Xiao Eve Swimming xD

Jack Papa & Henry Mama

SI GAY =.=

no lah.They Playing xD

Yong Quan Gor Swimming xD

These are all the photos when i took it in sentosa =D

Next =D

Those are the photos when i took it many weeks ago.
On MARCO , uncle's pet dog , my birthday and the one i went to kbox and i zi lian there xD

...

MARCO =D

This my uncle pet dog , MARCO!!!

I LOVE MARCO !!! =DD

We used to call it " MARCO LOLO or MARCO POLO " instead xD

My cousin QIQI carrying MARCO =DD

NEXT ; MY 16TH BIRTHDAY =D

NEXT ; KBOX ZI LIAN PHOTOS =X

( It's alright to be zi lian okays? xD )

...My eyebags so big... =((

SHHH... SILENCE PLEASE xD

1 ! 2 ! 3 ! ARBISH ! xD =X

( caught Si Hui in actions behind me ! xD )

Continue on

Next post >>>

2007-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

I'VE WENT TO SENTOSA ON WEDNESDAY~

WOOSH~

Hahas.Yeahs.I'm having a whale of time in Sentosa , Siloso Beach !!! It was totally fun !!! Hahas.Henry Mama , Jack Papa , Yong Quan Gor , Yong Hui Twin , Alvin , Xiao Eve and last of all , ME !!! We were enjoying ourselves and hahas ! I LOVE THE SEA ! Hahas.Before we went to Sentosa.We have all agreed to meet at Bukit Panjang Plaza outside the StarBuck to gather and go together.[ Except for Yong Hui and Alvin who will meet us at siloso beach at 4 plus. They need to attend lessons in school before rushing to sentosa to meet us.]Guess what. Henry Mama was late. ROAR~ We have planned to meet at 12.45 pm and he arrived at 1 plus. We called his home number and i think his ah ma picked up the phone.It was so hilarious when his ah ma answered the phone and Xiao Eve was the one who called the number.

Their conversations was ; Xiao Eve : Hello , Qing Wen Henry Zai Ma?

[ In Mandarin , In English : Hello , Is Henry At Home ? ]

Ah Ma : HAR? HANSHENG AH? JINGSHEN AH? HAR?

[ In Hokkien mixing some Cantonese ]

[ P.S:HanSheng is Henry's Elder Bro name while JingShen is his name ]

Xiao Eve : Huh? ER...Hello?Er...Sorry.ByeBye.

Xiao Eve ended the call and she passed me the phone , asking me to call.I took over the phone and tried calling Henry's Number again.Hahas.This time. The ah ma answered the phone again.I striked the conversations with the ah ma just like Xiao Eve did previously and i get the same reply as her.Hahas.It was freaking hilarious la when the ah ma spoke to me in Hokkien mixing Cantonese.Hahas.My imaginations just gone wild as ah ma was speaking real fast. Just like the Jay Chou at the another side of the phone rapping.I got no alternative as i catch no ball what was ah ma babbling about so i passed the phone to Jack.WAHHH I TELL YOU ARHS. Jack real tok-gong arhs.He could actually understand what ah ma was talking about and answered her back in the " non-understandable " we knew.Hahas.It must really be some alien languages that we could never even learn for thousand years.Hahas.After that what we got from Jack was that Henry was out of house and he must be on his way to plaza.Hahas.We waited for him and i saw some bitches that i knew.EEEWWWK.We ran outside the plaza and waited for Henry instead.Time flied by and our DEAR Henry has finally arrived.Cut out the conversations as we set out on our feet to the bus stop where i usually takes it to school to wait for our bus 963 to bring us to the harbour front bus interchange! Woosh! HERE WE COME !

The Journey was about 45 mins to reach the harbour front bus interchange.We arrived at the harbour front bus interchange and we took the train to Sentosa.The ticket cost us $3 . Hahas.Train would be faster i think.The bus that will bring us to Sentosa cost $3 ticket too but we need to wait for it.hahas.As you know.WE'VE RAN OUT OF PATIENCE !!! Hahas. We could no longer miss another second to get into the Sentosa and our paradise , SILOSO BEACH =D

SILOSO BEACH~

WE'VE ARRIVED OUR PARADISE , THE SILOSO BEACH ~

Hahas. We sounded very shua gu like never heard of siloso beach before.hahas.WHATEVER~hahas.I'm wearing pink floral printed bikini.hahas.Me and Xiao Eve chiong to toilet and changed into our bikini and WOOSH! hahas. haisya. Me shy narhs.Xiao Eve got herself a nice set of dark brown floral printed bikini. It's nice and she said that the floral print on her bikini is making her breast look one big one small which i found it very hilarious.hahas.Isn't it funny? Hahas. After we have changed , me and Xiao Eve took pictures in the toilet. Hahas. I looked so hideous.TOTALLY UGLY =( ROAR ! Never mind...and WOW when we stepped out of the toilet. GREAT HUNKS AND CHIC all over the siloso beach. Hahas. This is really heaven.Hahas.All the babes were wearing different designs and types of bikini.Hahas.Some do looks really good in it while some...hahas..you get what i mean , don't you ? =) [ I know my figure are not fab either. ] The Main point is on the HUNKS!!! OMG. I saw many shuai ges lehs! Hahas. EyeCandies~ hahas.OH MAN. You should have seen their six pacs. It's really packed up in neatly in six. AWWWWHH!!! i felt like touching and see if it's really hard and their skins!!! OH MAN. It's been beautifully tanned !!! shuai.Shuai.SHUAI arhs!!! Hahas.I could just fill my hunger by just looking at them.Hahas. D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S Hahas. My God. I've made myself sounded so pervertic but you really can't resist yourselves as your eyes keeps on staring at them. Hahas. Me and Xiao Eve were really enthu. We ran and get ourselves into the water!!! Hahas!!! The water was not as cooling as we have thought but it's alright . Hahas.We started to swim while those three stupid idiotic guys [ Jack papa , Henry mama and Yong Quan Gor ] went to play basketball. ROAR ROAR ROAR ~!!! Me and Xiao Eve swam for one or two hours before the guys join in.ARGH.AND THEN!!! They are back to play basketball again. ARGH. Yong Quan stayed behind with us and played in the water. NICE BRO =D Hahas.Later me , Xiao Eve and Yong Quan Gor went ashore.Hahas.I sat down while he started to bury my feet into the sand and finally half a body are down buried in the sand.Hahas.Xiao Eve and Yong Quan start helping me to make into the shape of the mermaid's tail.And at last it was being done nicely.EXCELLENT =DD Hahas. Yong Quan looked up at me and said ," Eh Xue Ting , you really do look like a mermaid leh. " Hahas. I found it amusing yet i do feel a bit hao lian and happy. YEAHS =D IT'S A COMPLIMENT OKAYS ? =D Hahas.We even took pictures and video on it.Hahas.The video was really freaking funny as we got it recorded down.Xiao Eve was the reporter , I'm the mermaid while Yong Quan was the constructor who " built my tail " xD

We continue playing until 4 plus as YongHui and Alvin finally arrived and gathered with us.Hahas.Stupid.First thing they did when they have met us is to play poker.Chua Dai Di , with Jack Papa and Henry Mama.The sun set slowly and all of us jumped into the water except for Yong Hui and Alvin who did not bring extra clothings.Too Bad. They can't join us in the water and have fun.They sat on the beach and watched us playing in the water.Hahas.How enthu they can be as being compared to us? Humphs. Hahas. The rest of us played a game called " Monkey " in the water.The game was played when a group of people crowd around a person who are known as the " Monkey " and start throwing around a ball.Their motive are not to let the " Monkey " to get hold of the ball or else the person who threw it have to become the next " Monkey " as the previous " Moneky " get back to the crowd and be part of the player.Sound fun? Hahas. This time round , we used an empty plastic bottle instead of using a ball and start our game. Hahas. Which of us was given a chance to be the " Monkey " except for Jack papa and Yong Quan Gor who were really lucky.They had not been the " Monkey " for the whole day. SO LUCKY !

As we joke around in water , the night fall and we went to bath around 7 plus.The queue in the toilet was long.Me and Xiao Eve had to wait for a long time before it's our turn to shower. The boys are much more faster.They waited for us and were getting impatience. They made their way to the spot where we placed our items initially to wait for us.Finally.We were done and went to the spot to find them.We have planned to glaze at the stars in sentosa.We were lacking of luck.We did not spot any stars but we have spotted the crest instead ,the crest was bright. =)

We left the sentosa and went to have our dinner.Hahas. We went to Vivo City , Food Republic . I ordered Korean stone mixed rice .FABULOUS.I was being given kimchi and the ikan billis. It was delicious , a bit spicy , just nice for me and after our dinner , i bought Ice Kachang along with me so that i could eat it on the bus =D

We took the bus 963 back to Bukit Panjang and of course, i had finished my Ice Kachang on the bus.Oh. It do remind me, while i was enjoying my Ice Kachang on the bus , a man aboard. He saw me eating Ice Kachang and gave me a kind of " WHAT THE HELL? You're fancy eating ice kachang on bus? UNBELIEVABLE . EEEEWK. " That kind of retarded face. I was eatting Ice Kachang on bus , ya i knew i'm in fault but mister , could you at least take it that you did not see anything? ARGH! FORGET IT~

Yups.We alighted in Petir and walked home with Yong Hui after we have sent Xiao Eve to the Petir LRT Station.While i was chatting with Yong Hui , I looked up at the sky. I was lucky enough to spot a star =D YEAHS!!! Yong Hui sent me home. What a nice chap =D By the time i got home. It was already 11.01 pm. He was mad at me for reaching home so late.I was wondering what on earth did i do wrong. I was merely reaching home later after a day of fun! i kept on alpologizing to him via sms and he did not call me yesterday night.After i have my bath and dried my hairs , i went to bed after looking at the last sms he sent me.SIGH.

Today morning when i woke up , he forgave me. What anger me was when i ask him if today he was well enough to go marina south to have steamboat , he answered no and he can't accompany me on saturday too. [ He's been sick since he came back from sentosa on Monday. I doubt he would go out with me on Sunday too ] It's alright , GOOD. I can save money to buy my monthly contact lens.I was planning to jio Jack papa and Xiao Eve to go with me but i decided not. SAVE MONEY ! I was so bored the whole day.During Evening.He called.I talked to him for a while and then we were abit arguing and he said call me later then karp the phone. I was like. WHAT THE FUCK? I went emo right after that and went to watch TV hoping to cheer me up at least.The show ended and i went online to confide in KiaYim. She cheered me up and gave me advices.i took in her advices and he finally called.He told me that he was jealous.He does not like me going out with so many guys and somemore until so late.AND WORSE , Yong Hui sent me home. He said what other guy sent me home. He asked if he is my ... in my eyes. He asked me , if he were with a guys and the rest of them were girls , they went out till very late.How would i think?How would i feel? I answered him and everything back to normal. PHEW~ He could not accompany me this saturday as he was going to GIRLGUIDE FUNFAIR with his friends.WOW.GIRLGUIDE LEH.** JEALOUSY taking over ** HUMPHS!!! He knew that i was saving money and guess what he told me that hurt me deeply. " Why Don't We Don't Go Out For This Whole Month Lor " WAAAAAH. I TELL YOU ARHS. After he had said this sentence , i feel like karping the phone. It was like WHAT FUCK? I could only meet you on either saturday or sunday in a week or in two weeks.Now you are telling me not to meet you the whole month? FUCK IT. It's really like WHAT THE HELL?SIGH.SIGH.SIGH.Can you treat me better? I'm starting to feel indifferent to all the things that you have done to me and jaded about the empty promises you made to me.NEVER EVER TELL A GIRL THAT YOU WILL CALL LATER BUT YOU DON'T. IT HURT. SIGH.He told me that next saturday he want to go to the park again in a big early morning like we do. POSSIBLE? SIGH.

Hahas.Matin smsed me this morning , apologizing to me that he and Jaivin did not have spare bicycle allow me to borrow from them.It's alright pals =D Hahas.

I think I'm ending here.Yups.

P.S : Here's the photos that i promised =D

SILOSO BEACH =D

Before swimming ; in the toilet =) & tt's my pink floral bikini.

after ending up swimming and wore a clothes
shot them secretly without let them knowing xD

SAND WRITINGS =D

BEING BURIED IN SAND !!! AHHHH~

more pictures will be uploaded TMR.

sorry for the blur images and i tried ro rotate the pics but to no valid. =(

2007-06-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

BORING BORING MONDAY !!!

It's so boring today staying at home all day long.hahas.I'm gonna save up money to go shopping!!BUT OMG.$27 per wk?how would i be able to spend tts money?In fact.IT'S JUST TOO LITTLE!!!OBJECTION !!OBJECTION !!awwhh...couldn't my parents just increase my allowance per week?

HUMPHS!OMG.I'm so envy of those friends of mine who get more then $50 per wk...sobs.sobs.

heys mum and dad.i'm not blaming your okays.i'm trying to tell people my misery...okays la.okays la.i'm trying to hint your to increase my allowance =D ** cheeky grin ** okays.fine.** grumbling non-stop ** i doubt your would ever be that kind to increase me allowance. =B ** My signatory action , RABBIT FACE ** AHHHHHHHH~!! I can imagine when i approach them with the matter of increasing my allowance.SMART.They would drive me off by their super duber powerful nagging.I realised.They are very clever in linking this matter to another.OMG.i decided to back out.i'm not going to approach the matters anymore. sigh. :(

Oh. Today i visited a website. Oh man. This website. Damn. I't so disgusting.

What so great about that girl when she's a girlfriend of a star?I can understand that if i were her , i would feel proud of my boyfriend and honour that i'm his girlfriend.But can't she at least be more humble and stop seeking attention like hell.She went to make video on herself , dancing or make a speech and put on net for people to view.

GOOD GRACIOUS.I hope she realised that she doesn't have the figure nor look.Hey.Before i criticize her , i do consider and look at myself then make a comment about her.Okay.i admit she do look better then me.She look like ah-lian and i do heard from others she's really an ah lian.Well. She's quite Buay Hiao Bai.She said it herself that she was famous.Do she need to use her boyfriend as a tool to help her to be famous?Can't stand it. awwwhh.After looking at the website and scrolling through it , the urge of bashing her upside down is arosing.LOLS.Her bloody website really do make my blood boil.She's totally disgracing herself , lower her status and making her popular by somesort of bitchy way.ARGH~How can all those boys see her as attractive?I wondered.Not that i'm jealous but i really find her Buay TaHan la.

Oh Man.EYES SORE.

hahas.let's change topic.don't talk about her anymore.Heys!! I'm going to sentosa on this coming wednesday!!! HOORAY~!!! hahas.I'm goin with Jack papa , Henry mama , Yong Quan Gor , Yong Hui , Alvin , Xiao Eve , " Jing Ting , Si Hui , Sze Xiong " ( I'm not sure weather are they coming along ) and last of all , Me!!! =DD Heys. I'm going to do loads of funny hilarious actions and take photos with them guys and im going to blog it =DD hahas.I'm so excited now.I've been longing to go there for a swim and enjoy the breeze and perhaps we will cycle around sentosa!!! I can't wait for Wednesday to arrive !!!

=DD I'm going to book one day to go marina south and eat the buffet with him =DD HEHEHES =DD hahas.

I'm reserved too to go cycling with Matin and Jaivin =DD hahas.Jaivin is a primary school friend of mine.We meet up recently with him and Matin.hahas.Heys.They don't regconise me.How sad that was? LOLS.It's alright.I'm going to show them our primary school photo oneday. I'm so hideous !!! hahas.They gonna prepare tobe scare out of their wit man xD

These few days, my mood has been very down and i'm quite depressed.Luckily i have a group of pals and most of all.My bestie , Peijie Laopo. hahas.we've been best friend since primary 2 and now we are still together in the same school but not in the same class.She do understand me then any other do and that's true.She passed me a packet of M&M on last friday as she knew that chocolate had always been my favourite and could cheer me up in no time =D hahas.Thanks Girl. I know you would be there for me whenever i need you. That's Why you are being born into this world and comfort me =DD BEST FRIEND FOREVER AND EVER AND HAPPILY EVER AFTER =DD

Hey girl. I wanna let you know that i would be here for you too like when you are for me =))

hahas.Speak of this.I realised.I've 2 personalities in me.hahas.One very emo and one very positive and optimistc.Sometimes i have loads of problems and i tend to bottom it up until i could no longer take it anymore and breakdown , get myself up and continue.hahas.strange isn't it? LOLS.

OH.I nearly forget to mention.Last week i'm totally down and in the process of breaking down , my two pals. Yi Xin and Kia Yim accompanied me to the park nearby and walked. After that we went to play the swings.hahas.It was totally fun but i got a bit nauseous and got off the swing just in time before i really feel like puking. xD They even bought fries to share with me and to cheer me up! Thanks Girl =DD

I think i will stop here for today.Hahas.I will update it next time =DD

P.S : i drank WHATEVER and i got Peach Tea xD

Cool Right? hahas.WHATEVER~ =D